Therapy, Reading and Writing

I woke up in the afternoon again and that didn't bother me. I think I just like sleeping through the mornings though I really do need to change that so that I can go back to the gym and go back to classes at Heartland. I was going to get my computer, but Jordan had just woken up and wanted to keep it. Since it wasn't imperative that I have it, I let him keep it. As for me, I was going through papers and my writing. I actually got inspired to finish a scene in "Crossfire" which I did and though I'm kind of stuck as for the next scene which I might just write off, I'm going to get them to the desert where she'll finally give herself to him. I've been working up to this point in the story. Then, of course, Rachel protecting Leila along with Johara. I'm wanting to actually work more on this story and I think today was a good start to that.

On the other hand, I just read a fantasy story about this girl meeting her dream guy - Bret Michael's or whatever his name is. Not someone I was interested in for sure, but it's made me think of the beginning of a story to write for myself. I don't know as I'd write it first person though. I don't write first person well. But it might be the only way to make the story work as a fantasy. I have the guy picked though - Daniel Craig. Or James Bond. Not sure which because this would have to be an off-time for him to come across my character. Also Oded Fehr. He's gorgeous too, but not as many people know him. But I like to stick with characters because there are no wives and girlfriends to deal with. Like I know Daniel Craig just married Rachel Weisz so I wouldn't feel right about writing about HIM. But Bond . . . that I could do! I think I'll see what I can do with that one.

Anyway, today was really just a quiet day. I did some writing as I mentioned and then I went to therapy. I talked about a lot of different things - and how I think my inspiration lately have been having someone new in my life. I'll either write an email or call tomorrow. I hope Rick is still interested in me. I hate feeling unsure, but I guess that's how it goes. And it's not like we're more than friends and lovers. Actually we need to work more on the friends part. Still, his son just got home and I don't want to interrupt that time.

After therapy, I came home, only to realize that I hadn't gotten any fish for Mr. Crabbs and so headed back out to Kahoots, bought five goldfish and these were stupid ones and got eaten up almost immediately and what a piggy Mr. Crabbs is!

Once I got home, my mom had dinner ready which was great! I managed to spill katchup on my shirt like an idiot so I actually took time to wash it out. I usually don't, but I guess I just didn't want this particular shirt mucked up. After that, I put on TV and watched two episodes of "Restaurant: Impossible" then I watched "Ghost Hunters International," and "Legend Quest" though I was kind of distracted by working on Cafemom posting on "I'm not Fat! I'm Fluffy!" and reading my friend's story on FANtastic Writers. But that's inspired me as well.

The only other thing I have done tonight is go to the store with Jordan. I really wanted ice cream. We went to Vons and we each got a flavor of Ben & Jerry's. I got a limited batch flavor called Fair Goodness Cake! It was German Chocolate cake, caramel, coconut . . . Jordan got his usual Fudge Brownie Chunk or whatever it's called. I also got two eclairs and Jordan a bag of chips. I am so full!!! Ah well. I want to be good, but there's part of me that's just so bad . . .

Anyway, that's all I really have for the time being. Tomorrow is yet another day and hopefully I'll get some writing done all around. Here's hopings!

Special Days!!

Well, I have a good reason for not posting last night. I met Rick!! I think it was the start of a good thing. He was looking for a lover and I was looking for something or something to bring me back to life and he's done that. At least by this first meeting. He's not that greatest kisser, but he is good in bed. And he's caring. I'm not too into dirty talk, but he's not overly verbal and in I'm not very verbal at all. Well, some . . . Anyway, we didn't get together until around 11 or Midnight and I didn't get home until about 2:30am. We both talked too. He loves my laugh. He was exhausted though by the time we were done because he had flown back to San Diego from Toronto. I don't know whatelse he did that day, but I know the time difference must have been hitting hard. 3 Hours ahead of here. Plus he had a meeting this morning and for me last night I was pretty wound up and had a hard time sleeping. Rather than wear me down it perked me up! LOL! Then I had trouble with my legs which sometimes happens. I don't think I fell asleep until about 5:00am. Of course, I had to wake up at 9:15am to take my mother to a doctor's appointment.

I waited for her at Walmart at the McDonald's. I grabbed a Sausage Biscuit with an Xtra large Diet Dr. Pepper. I know, what a combo! :-) I was so tired when I started reading "King Arthur" by Norma Lorre Goodrich. I have read it five or six times. I didn't want to start anything else when I was going to get "Passion" by Lauren Kate. Anyway, I was also bad and bought razor blades. Call it a strange security blanket. I also bought some bologna. My mom gave me the money for it, but I used the last of the money on my food card and used the money for the razors. 

I picked up my mom and she wanted to go to the 99 cent store. She wanted lemons. When we got there, I didn't see any so I asked this guy who worked there if there were lemons and he was nice enough to go into the back and bring out two boxs of bags of lemons. My mom grabbed 5 of them, I think. Plus some limes and some other stuff like zucchini. I was glad to get home at first. Then my mom had said something about my money coming in. So I checked the recipt and sure enough my money had come in!! So I got Jordan. We went to Taco Bell for lunch. Then headed to Walmart - I got "Passion" and my own copy of "Fallen" plus "Burn Notice: Season 4" and I also got Jordan two books to read - "Assassin's Creed: The Secret Crusade" and then a "Star Wars" book. I'm just glad he wanted books to read!! I also got a DVD called "The Warrior's Way" and I got a new memory card for the camera for when I run out of room with the other. Also got some 5-hour Energy. I also picked up some stuff for Diana - Non-fat yogurt, low fat cottage cheese, milk 2% . . . They didn't have the Truvia she wanted though.

After Walmart we stopped at the Vet to get Flea Killer for Karissa. I forgot what it was called, but it's like SafeGuard or something. It was supposed to work within 30 minutes. Since we put it on here, I haven't seen her scratching which is WONDERFUL!! She was starting to get pretty scabbed up again. Then we took then dairy items home. From there we went to Albertson's to get the Truvia. I got water and soda. It was $1 for a 2 lt. From there we went to Kahoots for goldfish for Mr. Crabbs and then put gas in the fuel tank of the car. When we got home I was definitely ready to be there. Jordan and I snacked on some powdered donettes I'd gotten too while we watched "The Warrior's Way." It was actually pretty good and not a totally unhappy ending. It was stylized and it was definitely enjoyable.

I was just getting on the computer after that when my mom said that they had dinner for us. Something I was not expecting!! We got lamb, fried zucchini and rose potatoes. It was so good!! It was a really nice treat and Diana had cooked the lamb. Lately she hasn't done anything for us because of her attitude. But I guess me not hesitating to get her stuff changed her tune a little bit.

Then I got on the laptop, posted on my "I'm not Fat! I'm Fluffy!" group on Cafemom. Called Nicole and called Rick . . . I am so tired!! LOL! Anyway, I watched "Billy the Exterminator" - In fact I'm watching the new one now. I also watched something on Killer Shark Attacks! Something called Black December from Durbin, South Africa back in the 50's. It was really striking to watch. I mean, it was re-enactments, but still.

Anyway, it has been a good day. I feel good. It's going to suck tomorrow when I'm broke again, but at least I emotionally feel better. Hopefully it lasts. Now I need to finish watching Billy, taking my meds and going to sleep! LOL! I definitely need it!

Had a Good Productive Day!

Well, my day started early. I only got about 3 or mayber 4 hours of sleep last night. I think I was just too wound up to sleep. I knew I had to wake up early to get the brakes taken care of.

It was hard waking up. I downed a 5-hour energy AND I fixed my coffee before I left. When I got the car there, I was glad. I think I was there for at least three hours. I read for a good portion of it. "State of Fear" is getting really good!! But I also watched one of the Navy Aircraft Carriers come into port after being gone for 6 months. I can't remember the name if the ship though, which sucks. But it was awesome to watch the families waiting and to see the soldiers finally leave the ship. See the first hugs and first kisses . . . Awesome! It also turned out that it wasn't the front brakes I needed to take care of, but the rear brakes! :-P At least it was the same price. I walked out of there having spent only $112! Cool, huh?

After that, I was starving so I stopped at Sombrero's where I got a Chili Relleno Burrito. It wasn't as good as Cotija's. Plus they put sauce all over it and I didn't taste any sour cream in it. That sucks. It wasn't bad, but it wasn't what I wanted. I just didn't want to drive down to Santee. I suppose next time I'll have to.

When I got home Jordan wanted to go out and get a couple of burgers. I needed to put fuel in the car so we headed out again. We went to the gas station and I almost forgot what side of the car my gas tank was on. No, I'm not tired at all! :-P But we got fuel and it was a great price. I think it was $3.77 per gallon. Or something close to that. Then we swung around to McDonald's. I got him a couple of McDoubles and I got myself a Diet Dr. Pepper. After that, we headed over to Kahoots to get crickets and fish. While I was there, I asked if they'd take a red-eared slider if I brought one in. When I told her it was the size of my hand, she said it was big enough to sell. I also asked what Crayfish eat . . . well, it turns out they eat goldfish!!! :-P So basically I'm buying fish now, for the crayfish that Cassie named Mr. Crabs. I have to keep him! Anyway, we went home long enough to have Jordan dump the water out of the little tank for the turtle and then brought the turtle back to Kahoots. As soon as he was in the tank with the other turtles he was digging it! That was just awesome to watch. I know he's much happier. And as it turns out, it is a HE!! Not a She! I was pretty happy getting that done, knowing that Waterclaw was going to be much happier!

Coming home, I played on Cafemom for awhile and then I took off to go to therapy. My therapist is moving offices and will be at the new office by the time of my next appointment. What's cool, is the place is closer to me! Yay! But I had a good session. Talked about Cassie. Talked about the kids in general. Talked about my dad and how depressed I was on the 13th, but how I feel better now. AND I told him about finally dropping Greg. EVERYONE has told me to dump him and this isn't the first time. Dr. Tess felt it was definitely a significant event. I think it was time. It needed to be time.

When I got home I heated up some spaghetti. I watched news about Tot Mom - Casey whatever her last name is. I HATE her. I think she's a lying, murderous BITCH. She should have killed herself. And since she didn't, I hope the state does! My mom also made some lemon meringe pies - little ones. They were so good! I would have liked it a tad bit sweeter, but it's still delicious. And after that I went back to Cafemom and watching about Tot Mom. Even now, I finished watching "Haunted Collector" and I think I'm going to check back in with Cafemom, but then I'm going to shut things down, do some reading and go to sleep a little earlier than I have been.