Days 9 and 10 - Man I'm TIRED!!

Well, I should have written this last night for yesterday, but I was so tired by the time I got home, there was no way I was coherent enough to write anything.

Susan and I went to the gym yesterday. Even Cassie came. The water aerobics class was good! :-) It ended up being a little too much for Cassie, but I thought it did its job. I wished Joy was teaching the class though. Before we left Susan was able to get a pass for a month which I thought was awesome!! She is thinking about joining the gym next month which is why they gave her a month. I love it because if she goes, I'll feel obligated to get my ass up and go work out. LOL!

After Cassie and Susan dropped me off, I went inside, got some decaf coffee and then I started to work on "Savior" about Eyal Levin. I need to get back to it. I'd like to get the story done before Christmas. But I don't know if I will. I'll try to work more on it tomorrow. I'm just too tired tonight.

I then had Jordan shower while I still played on the computer before we left for Jason and Susan's. We tried to be as quiet as possible when we got there because Jason was sleeping. So Jordan and I sat in the family room, talked and played with the cats. They all came out to see me. Soon Jordan had Lulubelle and Katianna playing with a straw. It was so cute!

Susan and Cassie got back soon and we started on the tree. Jason didn't want to come out of the room. I think he was just over tired from working. He has to get up early. Anyway, Jordan, Susan and Cassie were trying to get the tree in the stand and I was the one left to make sure the tree was straight. After that, Susan put on the angel and then her and I put on the lights. Then Jason came out in a much better mood. He and Jordan put the garland on the tree, then Cassie and Jordan decorated the tree with whatever ornaments they could find. Even Jason said it was time for new ornaments. Theirs are old and several are broken.

When Susan got back from the store, it didn't take long for her to throw together dinner. I had ham, a little mashed potatoes, then green beans and corn. It was good! :-) After that, we talked for a little bit. Cassie and Jordan started rough housing and of course they got mad at each other . . . Not that Jason stepping in helped. They're still mad at each other at the moment, I guess. Jordan's not sure he wants to go over there on Christmas Eve, but I think he'll change his mind. At least I hope so and I hope he and Cassie can just get over this event and move on. They usually do. But we'll see.

I was so tired by the time we left. I was ready for bed. We came home, I checked a few things on the computer, but I just didn't have the energy or the focus to write my journal entry so I gave the computer over to Jordan and went to sleep. Or tried. I took a muscle relaxant and an ativan as I tried to sleep but couldn't right away. It was a mistake to take that muscle relaxant though, because today it's left me feeling like I'm dragging all day.

When I woke up, I got ready to go to the Gym. My mom had washed my suit and towels for me, I took my vitamins and took my morning meds. I had my protein shake and then I was ready to go. Well, I grabbed a little water bottle too.

When Susan arrived it was just Susan. No Cassie. We went to the gym and got into the water aerobics class. Well, we got there before the class. The water was a bit cooler than it had been yesterday which wasn't so nice. But it worked. Joy was teaching the class which I was happy about because she is awesome! She's fun and has energy and is just youthful and approachable, I guess. Anyway, I guess it was cardio day because it was one hell of a work out today! It was good! I enjoyed it. Well, until the last bit of stretching. Because we weren't moving much, the cold crept back in and I was never so happy to get into the spa! LOL! Susan and I stayed in there about 10-15 minutes. Then we took showers. I was so tired. I could feel my body just wanting to stop. As soon as I was dropped off at home, I went and got my laptop from Jordan and started to write an email to My Aussie. But my eyes kept wanting to close. I was going to finish up and then go to sleep, but I saw a delivery man come to the door. My mom, of course, didn't hear it, so I got up and grabbed it for her. That's when I found out she was putting up her tree. It looks okay, but not great. At least it's a lit tree which makes it nice.

Anyway, Sue - Tim's 1st wife - sent my mom this beautiful wreath and candle center piece. It was gorgeous!! That's on my mom's coffee table now. She might not have gotten it had I not gone to gete it. But I think that's sweet.

After that, I did finish up my email and then I did lay down. I drifted in and out of sleep until about 3:45pm. Once I got up I got a stamp from my mom. I had to wake her up though, which I hated doing, but I had to get my car insurance out today. After that, I went to Albertson's. I bought a water bottle. Then I got the money order and got myself a little cane of Coca Cola lip smackers! SO I'm going to put it in my stocking. I'll have three new lip balms - Coke, Sprite and Coke Cherry! Nice!!

From there I out fuel in my car and headed to therapy. I got there a half hour early. I used the time to read "A Christmas to Remember." It's gotten very good. Then I had a good session with Dr. Tess. We talked about my lifestyle change and that he's talked to the psychiatrist that had seen me. It all went well! :-) I almost had gone up to Grossmont, which to be honest, I don't really want to because of how crazy things are, but on the other hand, I really want to get "Vanish" by Tess Gerritsen. I'm going to maybe try tomorrow. We'll see. As it is I'm not going to the gym tomorrow because my mom needs me to take her to Costco. The earlier the better!!

Anyway, my body is sore from the work out today. That's a first in a long time. But it just goes to show me that I really worked out today. I'm just tired. I worked on my Cafemom groups and checked the others while "Ancient Aliens" was on. Now I'm going to watch "Brad Meltzer's Decoded" then go to sleep!

That's it for today . . . and yesterday! LOL!

Short N Sweet

I didn't do much today so I won't be saying much. I would talk about yesterday, but it wasn't that interesting either. Basically I played on Cafemom and in all the forums. I did VERY little writing on my Fan Fiction "Savior" with Eyal Lavin. Then I read probably a good 100 pages of "The Sinner" by Tess Gerritsen. She weaves such great tales.

Anyway, today I slept until around 1:00pm or so. I even got coffee, but it wasn't enough to keep me awake. There was a "Dirty Jobs" marathon and I just kept nodding off. I did get to see Mike with the Tyliger. It was awesome. The tyliger was so cute!! I finally woke up around 5:30pm with Cassie calling me. She wanted money for this sweater she wants. I said okay, but I really wish she hadn't asked. I could have said no, but I didn't want to say no either. Not to be a bad guy but because I didn't want to feel selfish. So I don't know when she wants to get the money, but it's hers.

Well, I didn't eat dinner. Not that my mom cooked. I think the coffee just made me not hungry. I did have some cranberry bread that my mom made though and it was pretty good though she needed to put in more cranberries. I also went out to McDonald's and got myself a Diet Dr. Pepper and looked at the Christmas lights. Crazy Uncle Steve has his lights going! :-) So I'm going to get batteries and then maybe my mom and Jordan will come and we'll go watch the lights together.

Anyway, tonight I played on Cafemom and I even worked on my Fan Fiction "Savior" and then I watched "Cupcake Wars," "The Next Iron Chef - Super Chefs," and a Holiday "Iron Chef America." The secret ingredient was Alton Brown's Fruitcake!! It was awesome. Now I'm watching "Around the World in 80 ways." I think it's the last episode.

Well, I guess that's about it. I might do a little more writing tonight. Or I might do some reading or I might just go to sleep. We'll see. But it's been a decent day, even if I kept napping through it!


Fan Fiction and Cafemom Fun!

Today was a pretty good day. I may not have wanted to wake up, but I did and picked up Cassie. I was going to take my mom to the bank, but we decided tomorrow morning would be better. I've just decided that I'm going to have to wake up early and deal with it. I mean, if I kept sleeping late nothing will ever change and I need to try to get a normal schedule at some point.

Anyway, Cassie couldn't wait for Susan to pick her up. But that was just because she wanted to hang out with Ian more.

As for me, I have been playing on the computer on Cafemom. I added posts again to "I'm Not Fat! I'm Fluffy!" though I didn't add as much as I normally do. But I did get the book review in for "The Mephisto Club." Then I posted stuff in "Christmas Dreaming."

Then my mother surprised me. After I helped her make her bed and her little bitching session about me she got dinner for us at Beef 'n Bun. I drove and she paid. It was fantastic!! We each got fish and chips, I got a chocolate peanut butter shake while my mom got a strawberry one. That was good too!! Then we got Jordan a collosal burger meal. He was still sleeping so he didn't get to eat his fresh. He fault for not waking up! LOL!

Anyway, I went back to my computer AND I started working on my fan fiction for Eyal Lavin. I reworked it for Christmas. It's the only way it works for me. I didn't get too far; maybe a page and a half. I might write more here in a little bit, but maybe not.

I watched "Burn Notice" tonight and OMG!! Anson is kind of interesting. He is a bad guy and not one I particularly like, but he has suddenly gotten rather interesting to me. We'll see what happens next week. These are getting more dramatic as they go on. I love that show. Then I watched "Covert Affairs" which is always a good show. After all, that's where Eyal came from! ;-)

Well, I guess that's it for now. I'll see whatelse I can do and then try to sleep. Maybe I'll sleep relatively early . . . yeah right! LOL! Oh well!

No Black Friday For Me!

Well, I slept the day away. Last night I took a baclafen and two ativan and that shut me down. Even once I woke up to eat something I was still tired and went back to sleep again. Then I woke up to Jason calling me. Cassie's been having a good time at Knott's Berry Farm, but I guess Katie Kelly has not wanted to do much. She was being a buzz kill! LOL! I think that's what Jason had said. But I know Cassie still had fun. They also went swimming at the hotel. Oh and Jason sent me a pic of Cassie with her chili cheese fries at Knott's and OMG!!! It was HUGE! She told me she barely made a dent in it! And with as much as I can eat Jason didn't think I would have been able to finish it all! That sucker really must have been huge.

Anyway, I basically have been watching "Storage Wars" which is a pretty cool show. I also did a little writing on "Savior" about Eyal Lavin. But I have a long way to go with it. I'm trying to figure out where I want to go from there. I might do Thanksgiving. Or maybe more Christmas or not . . . Mossad is probably Jewish. Of course, that's a guess. Well, maybe we'll stick with Thanksgiving. LOL!

I did get out of the room for some pie. I had a piece of each again. Yum!! My mom apparently didn't like the apple pie very much. Some of the apples weren't cooked through the way her and I like, but I thought it was still okay. The pumpkin is almost gone but there's plenty of pecan left. I guess that's what happens when no one else really likes it! LOL! Ah well!

Right now, I'm going to go check on Cafemom for some stuff and see if I feel up to writing anything. Then I'm going to see what I can do about my Fan Fiction. I think it had a dynamic opening. I just need to move it along.

Guess that's it. Right now I have the TV on Lifetime and it's a Christmas movie. I think it's probably called "Secret Santa" but I wouldn't swear to it. But it looks nice. I hope they re-air it. I think I'll be watching a lot of Lifetime over the next month. Oh and I have my Christmas lights across my window and on! I love the holiday season!

The Food Network, Cafemom and Fan Fiction

I've felt kind of off today. More worst tonight than during the day. I woke up around noon and was online almost all day. I played on Cafemom a lot. I felt like I was just wound up and I needed to keep doing stuff. I joined a couple more groups. Not sure I'm going to participate in one of them, but I joined more or less to read ideas.

Anyway, I half watched something about evolution. I'd seen it before and disagreed with only one thing they said. That homo-sapien destroyed Neadrathal. Last I knew it was proved that some of our DNA comes from them, so the way they disappeared, was becoming part of us. Well, who really knows, right? It's probably a bit of both. After that, I just put it on the Food Network. Watched "Chopped" and an old "The Next Iron Chef - Super Chefs." Now they're showing the live thanksgiving show with a bunch of the chefs. Later I'm going to watch "Food Network Challenge," followed by a new "Next Iron Chef - Super Chefs" and then MAYBE "Iron Chef America." This is definitely my Food Network night.

I've still been playing with Cafemom, though I'm taking a break at the moment. In fact, one of the things I started was a Fan Fiction. The star is Eyal Lavin from "Covert Affairs." I love the character. So far I'm on page three and I'm calling it "Savior." At least for now. I have to decide what else I want to write now that I have the opening done. I'm sure it'll come to me as I go. But I can only work so long on it. I might work a little more, but not sure.

I can say I'm kind of tired, though I feel kind of down. My mother has been a bit of a bitch since last night. It's not like I don't understand her frustration with me or with the kids, but it's not easy being me either. I'm hoping tomorrow will be better. But I think that's probably what's contributing to me feeling off. Just added family stress.

Well, I guess that's it really. I have stuff I need to do tomorrow. I need to pay my car insurance. I need to mail off my gastric bypass packet. I have a Gyn appointment which I really don't want to do, but will. Then my mom wants to go get lemons. I have to get that in there or she's really going to have a fit.

Anyway, I'm hoping I don't feel as off or down tomorrow. Part of this has to be PMS. Maybe I'll start my monthly tonight or tomorrow morning. I'd have to cancel my appointment! :-P Guess we'll see what happens!