Last Day of Freedom . . .

I am so tired right now, but I can't go to sleep yet and it's midnight. I have to make sure Jordan does what he needs to do since my mom and sister are coming back from the reunion tomorrow. I'm dreading it because I just know they're going to find something wrong. I am really freaked that things will turn to shit again. And tomorrow morning I have to go to take care of the car. So I have to sleep at some point. Then tomorrow afternoon I have a therapy appointment. I could use one I think. I just hope it doesn't go downhill fast when they get home. I don't know I could deal with it and I have been trying to stay calm. I am still getting the thought intrusions about cutting myself. Even with them being gone, it hasn't gone away. But that's probably because they're coming back.

I had a good time having Cassie and Paige here. Not that we really spent a lot of time together, but just to have them here . . . Jason and Susan picked up Cassie and Paige wanted to watch a couple of movies so we watched "Eclipse" together along with "Overboard." I feel horrible that I didn't cook anything. My body has been sore and I've been tired. Way tired. I know it sucks. They didn't eat like they should have. I did go to the store with Paige and picked up some stuff - bread, milk, coffee creamers . . . LOL! I also got lunch meat and Cherry Preserves. But I forgot coffee. 

After the movies, I did a quick look at the house. Cassie had made the bed and it looked good, but she left stuff. Paige helped me quickly pick up most of it. The room looks okay now. But I still worry. Right now, Jordan and I got the watering taken care of. Then Jordan has dishes. He took out trash and I think he put a new bag in. I have heartburn from the cheese enchiladas Cassie baked earlier. I was glad I bought it. But I just have been getting heartburn so often lately. I just took an acid reducer. It means it's going to take time to work, but it'll work for the rest of the night.

I also spent time on Cafemom. I worked on "I'm not fat! I'm Fluffy!" and added a bunch of stuff. What made things easier and better was that the "Add Video" tab popped back up. That made it easier to post music videos rather than posting a link. I also posted a poll and a question and recipes and humor - The Kitty Cat Dance! That is such a good video. I used to get that song stuck in my head. LOL!

Anyway, I'd better go check on Jordan since I'm done watching "Deadliest Catch" and "After the Catch." But soon enough I want to go to sleep! My bed is calling to me!        

What a Sunday! LOL!

Well, I got up a little earlier than usual I guess. I woke up around 1:00pm. and I took my meds, got dressed and headed out the door to go to Jason and Susan's to spend time with Cassie and Paige. The girls and I spent time on the computer or reading or watching TV. Though most of it was us each doing our own thing. But I enjoy just being in their presence. Cassie was reaing one of her Warrior Cats books and I was reading more of "Ice Cold." 

For dinner we went to Alberston's. Paige got Oriental Noodle salad. Cassie got a sandwich, potato salad and chips. Then I got fried chicken. Mmmmmm! Then we each got a soda and I also got mini-cupcakes. 

Then went Jason and Susan came home, Cassie decided she wanted to come home with me. Jason, of course, didn't want her to. He'd like it if I never had time with her, though he says he wants her to have time with me other than a little time here and there. I guess I shouldn't say too much. But sometimes i feel like he thinks he's better than me.Of course, I might be projecting that with my low-self esteem.  Anyway, Cassie and Paige came home with me. I came in here and watched "Finding Bigfoot" and "The Glades" which I kind of half watched because I was working on "I'm Not Fat! I'm Fluffy!" I added a new Forum for music videos. The sad thing is, I don't know how to embed them into a post, so I use a pic and link it.

Anyway, I gave Jordan the last two pieces of my fried chicken and then I had him water the yards. Apparently Cassie did the said yard. That's one less thing I have to worry about. What I do get to worry about is the fact that my mom is coming home with Diana on the 13th. Ugh!

I am glad I got stuff done on my groups. I'll probably check it one more time before I had this over to the girls for the night. As for how I'm feeling kind of okay. I also kind of felt depressed. I'm still just tired all the time. I hope I sleep tonight. I should. I need to get up relatively early for the girls. Well, maybe. Anyway, I guess that's it for now. The girls are being silly and distracting! LOL! And I'm enjoying it!

 

Oh Happy Day!

Outside of the heatwave today, it's really been a good day. My mom and Diana left for the reunion today. I slept in til about 1:30pm. Jason kept calling like a pain in the butt. He wanted to come over and when he wants to he can be relentless! LOL! Anyway, I played on the computer for awhile, then I went and picked him up. I was so hot and sweaty. Then as he relaxed, I finally went and took a shower - a nice COOL show. It felt GREAT! I haven't had a shower feel that good in a long time! Anyway, Jason and I hung out for awhile, then Susan came and picked him up. I also got my $40. I then played more on Cafemom. I also watched some more stuff on Casey Anthony. I hope she never has another peaceful day of her life. She got away with murder. Poor little Caylee.

Eventually I woke up Jordan. We went to McDonald's for dinner. McDoubles, McChicken, rolo McFlurries and a soda for me. After that we went up to Walmart. I probably shouldn't have but I bought "Season of the Witch" and a 4th of July hair tie. I also bought tons more goodies. I guess I just can't help myself. I even got sparkling strawberry lemonade and rootbeer for Jordan. It's pretty good!

Anyway, we came home and watched the movie. I really enjoyed it, so it was a fantastic buy. Got into my kettle corn and ate about half of this HUGE bag. I'm glad I got it. I hadn't had kettle corn in ages. I forgot how good it was. I'm debating at the moment of having cookies, but I think I'll abstain for now. I need to be asleep soon since I have to wake up tomorrow and go to El Cajon Ford. Have to have that recalled piece replaced. I might check Cafemom one more time and then go to sleep watching "Rizzoli & Isles." I'm glad that it's cooled off tonignt. Thank god!

Okay, guess that's it for now.