Day 43 - Itchy Scratchy AGAIN. :-(

Man, I was glad to get back to water aerobics today, though I was willing to bale out this morning. LOL! But the bad thing is, I'm so itchy now! REALLY itchy! It's awful! But on the other hand, I can't really do anything about it. I hate being allergic to the chlorine. It really does suck! Then I was tired and though I was tired when I got back it took me awhile to doze off. I got really cold too and burrowed under my blanket. I think I'll be doing that shortly again. I'm tired.

Anyway, I had to get up to pick up Cassie. It's nice to see how Cassie responds to my mother now. They get along great as long as Cassie isn't living here. LOL! It was raining while I waaited for Cassie to get out to school and I was busy reading "Beautiful Creatures." When we got back home, I told her where I was and she told me a bit more about the book and some about the next book in the series. That was nice. Then Cassie was hungry. My mom had split pea soup left and Cassie devoured it. She was still hungry though and asked my mom if she had stuff to make salad. My mom was thrilled to hear that and asked her to go out into the garage fridge to get lettuce and tomatoes. Cassie got the lettuce ready, not just for her salad, but for dinner. That was nice. My mom was happy about that. Cassie had to eat quickly so she would leave with Jason and Susan. Oh, and Daniel might be moving down to San Diego and living with Jason and Suan too. Though I don't know how that will really work out. The house is going to be too loaded with people and stuff for Jason. I'm expecting a lot more upheavel, but with luck everything will go smoothly. Cassie absolutely loves Daniel so she is thrilled by the prospect. :-) I hope it all works out well.

Dinner was great! My mom made stuffed mushrooms, baked potatoes and BBQ baked chicken. Delicious! I could have eaten two pieces of chicken, but I was good and only ate one. However, after dinner and after I watched "River Monsters," "Gator Boys" and "Finding Bigfoot: Further Evidence," I needed Jordan to come to the pharmacy to pick up a couple Invega 3 mg. for me since the TAR hasn't gone through yet. I really need my pills, but at least I can get them as I need them. Anyway, Jordan asked to spot at McDonald's. He wanted a drink, but he was hungry again and so was I, but I didn't want to eat a burger. Still, I got him a McDouble and a drink and I was bad. I got myself a diet Dr. Pepper and an ice cream cone. at least the cone was small. I decided that it would be the last thing I ate tonight. Even though I'm a little hungry again. Something is wrong with me. I've been hungry a lot lately. I hate it. Then Jason and Susan want to take me to get weighed. I want to know, but I don't want to know and it's making me depressed. I don't want to find out that I'm not making progress. Which is a possibility. I think I'll feel sick if I haven't lost much.

Anyway, I took pix of Karissa tonight. I got her next to the book "Beautiful Creatures." I figured it was a good title to have next to her. She looked so cute. Then I posted a couple of things on her Facebook profile and page. I did go to Cafemom too, but I have to say I think I'm finally getting a little burned out. I'm trying not to, but it still happens that way, I guess. I posted on "I'm Not Fat! I'm Fluffy!" but I didn't post anything for my Holiday group. I just didn't feel like it. I did ask for another siggy in the siggy group. I loved the last avitar. I want another avitar, but I can only request one more this month.

Well, I guess that's it. I am tired and I'm cold. Or at least my feet are! Karissa's sacked out too. I think it's time for bed.

Day 33 - Feeling Better But Still Cold

I woke up today and though I didn't feel like it I got up, took my vitamins, had my protein shake and went to water aerobics class. There was a substitute instructor. She was okay, but not great. Not funny either. Wish it had been Joy there. By the time I got home, I was exhausted and my back was sore. But my mom said that we needed milk or rather Jordan needed milk and she wanted some decaf coffee, so I went out to Albertson's and got it. I also got me water and vitamin water. Then I got cold and I was tired so I cuddled under the blanket and dozed on and off until 3:00pm.

I woke up Jordan at that time to get the computer. Once I had it, I played a lot on Cafemom. I actually got a new member in "Holiday Dreaming!" It's so awesome!! Then I checked out some of the other groups I'm in. I stayed on there until my mom called dinner - salad, mashed potatoes and tilapia! It was definitely good.

After that, Jordan and I went to Walmart. That was fun. My mom wanted butter. I wanted salad dressing and Oikos yogurts plus a few other things. I got 100 calorie pack Milano cookies!! I was so thrilled to find those. I also got more gum - Aprple Pie flavored. It's pretty good. I also got Sobe Life water - 2. Then I went a little nuts and got two DVDs - with three movies -"Demolition Man" with "Over the Top" and "Drive Angry" which is a Nicholas Cage movie I wanted. I still have to get the last Harry Potter movie, but that will come. I'm thinking tomorrow is going to be a movie day. I have several movies I haven't even watched!

Anyway, now I'm just chilling out. I watched "Chuck!" I really have missed it. There are only two episodes left and then it's over, I guess. I'll have to try to watch them. Now I'm watching "Grimm." After that, I'm turning it on SyFy. I can't remember what's on though. Go figure. Oh, "Merlin!" After that, I'm planning on going to sleep. I was thinking about going to water aerobics tomorrow with Susan, but I just can't. My whole body is so itchy. Oh and someone suggested that my being cold was from my lower calorie intake. I suppose it's possible. We'll see. But even in my room which is usually pretty warm for me, I'm sitting here with my sweater on. I actually slept with my sweater on the other night. I hate the being cold, but I'd take it over being too hot. 

Guess that's it for this addition of my life. Until next time!



Day 18 - Itchy Scratchy

Well, the rashes are worse. Thank god I have the weekend to partially recover before facing another week of water aerobics in that water. I love the water aerobics, but I really hate the rashes that I get from the chlorine. That really sucks and I can't stop the itching and I can't help but scratch. Ugh!

I got up this morning without a problem. I had the last of my strawberry protein powder. Then I took my vitamins and medication and got ready to go to the gym. I was ready by the time Susan got here.

One of the things I've noticed is though I have a hard time walking far, I have started walking from where ever Susan parks and walk from there instead of her letting me off in the front. It still takes a lot out of me to walk in and out, at least I can do it. Susan was also nice enough to bring me a water bottle to fill up with water. It was good to have.

The work-out was good! I have a hard time hearing Lois sometimes. It's the same for Susan, but I figure as long as I'm still moving I'm doing good! but the pool was cold!! Ugh!! That's something I don't like. The water has been really cold and I hate it. I might warm up once we get moving but as soon as we hit the stretching at the end, I am freezing!! Thank god for the spa! I had to stay in there longer today though because this one woman was here and she uses the hadicapped stall too, so I wanted to make sure she had plenty of time so I didn't have to stand there waiting and probably making her feel bad.

Anyway, after the shower, I still felt a little cold and I was tired. I work harder and harder during the classes. When I got home I laid down and took a nap. I probably shouldn't have, but it seems to be nice for me to do it. Then when I wake up, I got to try my new protein powder - Chocolate Peanut Butter. It wasn't as good as I hoped it was, but it was okay. I'm sure it'll grow on me. The strawberry did! :-) And the good thing is it seems the absess is finally starting to go down!! The antibiotics are finally working!! Thank god for that!!! It's still swollen, but not like it was. I have hope now that it'll need no draining. Yay!

Well, I did check out some stuff online. I checked a couple of things on Cafemom, got on Facebook and looked at Tumblr but I haven't felt up to doing much. There is so much I can do, but I just don't feel like it. If I could I would just go to sleep, but I'm having trouble with that. I might take another percocet, though I guess I really don't need it. Or maybe I'll take an ativan. I did watch some re-runs of "Monk" and two episodes of "Criminal Minds" that I hadn't see before so that was a nice treat. But I definitely want to sleep. I wish I was lucky like Karissa. She can sleep easily. Of course, she's a cat and that's something she does well. LOL! In fact, she snores! I don't want to snore though. When I do I wake up with headaches.

I can't believe that Christmas is over and that New Year's is just a few days away. It's crazy. I have some anxiety about 2012, but all in all, I think it's going to be a good year for me. I just have to keep that in mind and leave out the stupid doomsday crap. I don't know why it bothers me at all. All the end of the world crap is just that - crap. But there's something about this one that bothers me the most. I don't know. I just have to put it out of my mind and just leave it alone, not that I go out of my way to look into it. It's just crap.

Well, I guess that's it. Tomorrow is a new day and my last day of water aerobics for the week. I may or may not try to get to the night classes on Mondays and Wednesdays if Susan goes. I suppose it depends on how I feel and how bad the rashes are. But there's no denying it would be good for me so I'll keep it in mind.

Anyway, I'm going to take the percocet or ativan and go to sleep. Fingers crossed.

Too Little Sleep Makes a Loooonnnngggg Day!!

Well, today has been a long day. I slept like crap last night, but on the brightside my daughter spent the night! It was nice to have her here though she still doesn't want to fall asleep out in the family room alone so I sat out there with her until she fell asleep. She didn't sleep until late. Probably just not used to being here anymore, but that's okay. I woke her up and she was not easy to get up, but she did and I got her to school just in the nick of time. I don't generally like to be that late, but Cassie doesn't like getting there early. So I was being nice.

 

Anyway, after getting up I took my meds and a 5-hour energy, took her to school, came back and got ready for the gym. I was half an hour early for the water aerobics so I just swam laps until it started. I really do enjoy the classes. I won't go on the weekends though and the only thing that really sucks is a break out in rashes after being in that pool. I guess it's an allergic reaction to something in that pool water. My guess is it probably has a higher chlorine content. Needless to say I'm all itchy now. :-( I definitely need to contact my doctor and see what can be done about it because I'm not going to give up my water aerobics class.

 

Jordan and I FINALLY turned in the recyclables today and we got $15. We forgot to take the glass though so we'll be getting more money out of that maybe tomorrow. But with the money, I got us drinks, got us each a cheap sandwich - he got a double cheeseburger and I got a McChicken sandwich, then we each got a hot fudge sundae. They were only $1 a piece. Then with another dollar I had we went to Kahoots Pet store and got crickets for Tubbie our Fire belly frog. Guess he's actually a toad, but I think he looks like a frog! LOL! Then I put what was left into my car. It didn't get me a lot of fuel, but I have enough to make it to the 3rd, I think.

Cassie had her last visit with her therapist today. Not by choice, but the insurance won't pay for anymore sessions. But we did get a referral to a psychiatrist to really be able to deal with her anxiety. She is so much like me. She has this massive anxiety, but she's also very assertive. The bad thing is when people see you as assertive, they think you're confident and you don't have things like anxiety. But either way, we'll be getting her some real help. It's not that I want to see her on medication, but a lot of the days she's missed from school with stomach aches has been anxiety. I'm positive of it now. So maybe something might help her. It was funny because Jason said, "I don't want her on pills!" Her reply to him was "Well, I'm not afraid to take pills like some people!" Jason was prescribed with Paxil years ago and he was supposed to take. He's never taken a pill I don't think. He's paranoid about medication. And it's supposed to help with anxiety which he has too because he has panic disorder. Yeah, we're all a bunch of mentally ill people! LOL! Anyway, I was able to make an appointment with a pdoc for May, unless there's a cancellation. I'm thinking now we might finally get a handle on the anxiety for her and she won't have as much trouble going to school.

When I got home the toilet was stopped up. I tried to fix it and it didn't work. In fact, when I did it, it over-flowed the bowl. It was gross. My mother and I had to clean it up and we had Jordan try to unplug it. That was an experience I don't want to repeat anytime soon. All I can say is I did something wrong and I don't want to do it again! LOL!

Well, I just had dinner. It was pretty good. Polish Sausage, mashed potatoes and peas. My mom also made two pineapple upside down cakes!!! I love those! Needless to say dessert was awesome! LOL! Now I am completely exhausted. I've also had trouble breathing today like I can't catch my breath, but only when I move. I think I just stayed too long in the spa at the gym. This lady and I got talking and before I knew it 30-40 minutes had passed or so it seemed to be. She's a nice lady and I look forward to seeing her again. However, I'm going to hope that I get to sleep early tonight and I don't need meds. I'm running low on my ativan. But I'll survive. I always do.

5-hour Energy Nap??

Surprise, surprise, I slept like crap last night! LOL! I wasn't going to get up at 8:15am, but Susan called about taking Cassie to the doctor. So I decide I'll get up and go to the gym. I did drink down a 5-hour energy though I don't like to do two days in a row. As an example, I ended up taking a nap this afternoon. It just becomes ineffective quickly in my body if I use it every day. In fact, I might have to go to every few days.Anyway, I wrote a note giving Susan the go-ahead to get my Cassie medical help. I was worried that she might have a small fracture, but as it turned out - after they went to Children's Hospital ER - that she just had a really bad sprain again. Sometimes I wonder about my child. This year has been a lot of sprains and strains.

I went to the gym and made it in time for the water aerobics class. The water in the pool, though, was JUST a bit chilly. LOL! That was the first time I thought the pool was actually cold. They said it was only a couple of degrees off normal, but I can pretty much say NOT!!! I made it through the class fine though and got a good work-out. As a neat little tidbit, the instructor told us because we were cold that we were burning even more calories. Not that I would want to stay cold, but at least I got something good out of it since I couldn't control it. LOL! I was also going to swim my laps, but before I could pick a lane, they were pretty much taken. Not that I couldn't have pushed the issue and taken a lane since I was in the water, but the thought of the nice, warm spa was too inviting. I got out and got in the spa and stayed there way too long. I was in there for like half an hour! LOL! Needless to say after that I sat down through most of my shower. I personally thought I did pretty good washing off, but the rashes came back almost immediately and I am so itchy. That is the one BIG THING I hate about going into that pool. I get this stupid reaction. I know I haven't gone to the doctor yet, but I don't think there's anything he can do about this except give me a cream and who knows if it'd work. Guess I should try it though. The doctor might be able to help, I suppose. This iching SUCKS!!!

When I came home, I checked in with my mom. I ate a piece of French Toast I found. I then went into my room. Jordan had my laptop so I couldn't play on the computer, but what really mattered is that I was exhausted anyway. I decided I would finish reading "The Surgeon" which was awesome! Though I was a little disappointed that we didn't see a lead in to "The Apprentice" - to see Hoyt's desires shift from Cordell to Rizzoli. That would have tied it together perfectly for me. Either way, it was a FANTASTIC book!

An old episode of "Destination Truth" came on so I kind of watched that. Then "Face/Off" came on as a marathon. I knew that was because of the finale tonight. I was so looking forward to it! But as I was watching I fell asleep. So the 5-hour energy was a FAIL today. It did get me to the gym though, so not a complete fail. My mom was upset because no one had done anything, but I told her I was tired. I guess when she found me sleeping she got concerned. I don't take naps easily. I just don't. So she said I should go see the doctor and have my heart checked because Dr. Oz said that if you're tired for over a week it might be a sign that your heart isn't functioning properly. I don't put a lot of stock in Dr. Oz but my mother does, so I've taken that under advisement. Maybe I'll make that appointment tomorrow.

My mom finally woke me when it was time to eat dinner. It wasn't anything special. Just hot dogs and baked beans, but that's good enough for me. After that, I just watched "Face/Off", scratched Jordan's back and had him scratch mine. LOL! Then he gave me the laptop back so I puttered on there for awhile. I went to Facebook and checked on my Happy Aquarium. I got a Happy St. Patrick's Day sign and I did get a baby alligator, but it seemed to disappear, which sucked. I also played on Happy Pets and bought a Shamrock Bunny. I like bunnies better than ducks. I love all my pets! Named the bunny Patrick. :-D

Okay, I am still tired. I watched the new episode of "Ghost Hunters" where they heard conversations and a door opened and closed on it's own right in front of Steve and Tango. It was trippy. Then after that was the finale of "Face/Off!" It was FANTASTIC! OMG! The work put into the finale was incredible. Each of the last four had to pick from a set of fairytales and themes. My favorite was Tate's Post Apocalyptic "Little Red Riding Hood!" LOL! Gauge picked "Hansel and Gretel" with Industrial theme. Sam did Psychedelic "Little Mermaid" and last of all Connor did Haunted "The Frog Prince." I would try to capture what they did in words, but it wouldn't do it justice. I also like the fact that there will be a season 2. They are already looking for people! Awesome!

Anyway, I am still tired. Think I might get something to eat and then go back to sleep. I guess my body could only take being tired for so long. Maybe tomorrow I'll feel clear-headed enough to do some writing. That would be a good thing. Got to start replacing what I lost. That still sucks I lost stuff, but it is what it is. Just gotta get a flash drive. That will solve the problem permanently.

As for tomorrow, it's St. Patrick's Day!!! Yay!! I might try to get some food coloring and I have lemon-lime soda - so green soda!! I also have my pins and the head boppers! My mom should be making corned beef and cabbage - YUM! I do really enjoy today though I can't tell you why. Maybe it's just the feeling of belonging in the world on that day. I know that kind of sounds crazy, but it's about people. Kiss me I'm Irish! Pinch you if you don't wear green! So I look forward to tomorrow. Even if I don't do much. I just love it!

So now it's off to snack and sleep. Maybe I'll dream about my dad again. I did earlier. That he was alive and then not alive. But I dreamed about him. I miss him. Okay, I've blabbered enough!