Back to Red!

I'm tired so I think this might be one of my shorter entries. I'm doing a bit better today. I slept until 2:00pm still, but then my mom woke me. It was a good thing. My mom wanted to go to Costco so I got up, got dressed. I got coffee when I saw there was some for me and then we went. I wanted to stay in the car, even as hot as it was, but my mom wrote out a list just for me to get. So I went in and got what I needed to. What was really nice is while I went to the car and had someone help me get stuff situated my mom got a pizza and brought me an iced tea. It was good.

I came home for a little bit, ate pizza and did some reading of "Torment." It was getting so good I could hardly put it down. But I did to go over to Jason and Susan's for dinner and Susan was going to color my hair. Just for the record, I am a red-head again! :-) Susie made spaghetti with her GREAT sauce. Then she colored my hair. I read more of "Torment" as I waited to the point I was very close to the end. When I got home, I just couldn't help myself. I picked up the book and started reading again. I had missed most of "The Closer" so there was no point in watching the last bit. Then "Rizzoli & Isles came on so I read through commericals. After that I turned the TV to "Eureka" and finished reading the book. OMG!! I can't wait to get "Passion!" I bet it's going to be a sensational book! It was awesome! So now I'm going to finish watching "Eureka" and then I'll probably go to sleep. Tomorrow I have to write to Rick. I was going to write tonight, but I'm just too tired.

Anyway, it was a better day, I guess. And I went back to my regular dose of Paxil so I guess that is that. No more extra paxil - ever.

Guess that's it this time around! :-)

From a Sucky Morning to Good Evening

Today has been an emotional day. I think my trying to up my dose of Paxil by 10mg is really back-firing. I think it's been making me emotional and giving me a lot of anxiety - as if I didn't have enough with Diana here. Though I have to say that Diana was pleasant today and that's when she's tired and still not feeling well. But I can't have the Paxil making me more anxious so it's time to go back to just my regular dose. I just so much wanted to go into a hypomanic state, I guess - a happy, happy state!! But oh well. I guess I just have to hope for one. The depression brought out a couple of poems for me though. But it sucks to feel that darkness. But then tonight, I'm feeling fine.

I spent much of the afternoon watching "Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull" and playing on Cafemom and whatnot. I really need to go back to participating in my other forums. Then for dinner my mom pulled out chicken and potatoes that had been cooked yesterday and we reheated it with some baked beans. It was good. The BBQ sauce went a long way. Jordan was a good kid and did the dishes, changed the sheets on his bed and started laundry for me. I wiped down the table. It wasn't much, but at least it was something. Then we went back to my room and watched videos on YouTube. We watching everything from Weird Al and The Mean Kitty to this Anime that Jordan is getting me into called "Black Butler." Surprisingly I like it and I am really into the Butler/Demon or whatever he is. Plus as far as Anime goes he's hot. LOL! I'm very drawn to the personality of the character.

Now I'm going to check my email and see if Rick wrote me and then I'm going to watch "Iron Chef America" and "The Glades." I'm also tired so hopefully I'll be sleeping relatively early. For a sucky morning (Or rather, when I got up) to a good night. That's a good thing.

More Perky Than I have been!

It seems to me that I haven't had much to say these last couple of weeks and when I have had something to say I was just too tired. I have been very, very tired lately and it was driving me crazy. It was also keeping me off the computer. I mean, it's hard to want to do anything when you feel like you can just drop off to sleep!

Anyway, I started taking the Paxil my pdoc wanted me on and to top that off I ended up with an absessed tooth! So that meant antibiotics. In fact, when I went to the ER they put an IV in me and ran antibiotics through me. They also gave me MORE antibiotics to take. The sad thing is I can still taste them! ICK!! But the swelling is down so the infection is gone or almost gone. Still makes me wonder how much the exhaustion was from the antibiotic/infection and how much was the paxil. I mean, I was sleeping 12 hours every day!! Today not so much. I slept late because I didn't sleep well last night. Restless legs got the best of them . . . Time for another med change - Benedryl in place of the other medication I was taking.

So I'm doing better today and I'm happy of that! Yay!