Mustard, Books and TV Shows

Well, last night I was too tired to write. To be honest, I'm pretty tired tonight too. Of course, it's coming up on midnight. But I've been tired all day. Of course, I've also slept most of the day though. I didn't want to wake up at all, knowing my mom and Diana are home. But once I finally got up, I decided to go to Walmart to get mustard. But my mom also wanted me to pick up her medicine and she gave me money to cover it. I asked her if we could get sodas and she said yes, so on the way we went to McDonald's. We each got a McDouble and then a drink. Gotta love those drinks. After that, I had Jordan run in and get my mom's medicine, then we went to Walmart and I couldn't help getting goodies. I really have to watch it though. I don't have that much money left. 

Anyway, When we got home, I laid down again. Jordan played on the computer for awhile. I then watched TV AND I finished reading my book. "Ice Cold" was awesome! It had an ending I didn't really expect which was very cool! Next book I start reading is "Fallen," and I suppose that will be tomorrow when I FINALLY take the car in to get fixed. I keep putting it off to sleep. Now I have to get my ass up around 11:30am or so. Cassie loves the book and it sounded good so we'll see.

"Burn Notice" was good tonight. Looks like there's another mystery to solve - someone's trying to frame Michael for killing his partner Max. So that will be interesting to watch next week and see where it will do. Then I also watched "Suits" which was great. I love the young kid that's never been to law school who is so good! Great show! Then I also got lucky and saw the "Covert Affairs" episode I missed this week.

Anyway, I guess that's about it. I am going to take my meds and go back to sleep. We'll see what tomorrow brings. Though I have to say I'm hating life at the moment. I am on edge just waiting for the next shoe to drop. So far Diana's been pleasant today. But that means nothing for tomorrow. But I guess we'll hope it stays good. 

So I guess that's that. The only thing on for tomorrow is getting the car fixed and "Haven" is going to be premiering tomorrow night. I hope everything stays even-keeled.

What a Sunday! LOL!

Well, I got up a little earlier than usual I guess. I woke up around 1:00pm. and I took my meds, got dressed and headed out the door to go to Jason and Susan's to spend time with Cassie and Paige. The girls and I spent time on the computer or reading or watching TV. Though most of it was us each doing our own thing. But I enjoy just being in their presence. Cassie was reaing one of her Warrior Cats books and I was reading more of "Ice Cold." 

For dinner we went to Alberston's. Paige got Oriental Noodle salad. Cassie got a sandwich, potato salad and chips. Then I got fried chicken. Mmmmmm! Then we each got a soda and I also got mini-cupcakes. 

Then went Jason and Susan came home, Cassie decided she wanted to come home with me. Jason, of course, didn't want her to. He'd like it if I never had time with her, though he says he wants her to have time with me other than a little time here and there. I guess I shouldn't say too much. But sometimes i feel like he thinks he's better than me.Of course, I might be projecting that with my low-self esteem.  Anyway, Cassie and Paige came home with me. I came in here and watched "Finding Bigfoot" and "The Glades" which I kind of half watched because I was working on "I'm Not Fat! I'm Fluffy!" I added a new Forum for music videos. The sad thing is, I don't know how to embed them into a post, so I use a pic and link it.

Anyway, I gave Jordan the last two pieces of my fried chicken and then I had him water the yards. Apparently Cassie did the said yard. That's one less thing I have to worry about. What I do get to worry about is the fact that my mom is coming home with Diana on the 13th. Ugh!

I am glad I got stuff done on my groups. I'll probably check it one more time before I had this over to the girls for the night. As for how I'm feeling kind of okay. I also kind of felt depressed. I'm still just tired all the time. I hope I sleep tonight. I should. I need to get up relatively early for the girls. Well, maybe. Anyway, I guess that's it for now. The girls are being silly and distracting! LOL! And I'm enjoying it!

 

Running Tired

I don't think this one is going to be too long. I am way too tired to sit here and write tons of stuff. But I will give an outline of my day. I woke up at 6:15am. I so didn't want to get up, but I did and got coffee. Then I headed u to the Welfare office. I ended up taking care of the papers last night to ease my mind about what what I needed to do. Anyway, I got up there and the office wasn't even opened yet! So I waited in my car for a few minutes. I drank my coffee and then I ended up grabbing my folder with the paperwork. I was bummed out to find out I couldn't take my coffee in with me. Apparently there had been a couple of slobs the week before. Anyway I threw it away and went inside. I actually got seen pretty quickly. I also went in for orientation and talked to the woman about my issue with the medi-cal and the other insurance that's not supposed to be on there. She seems to think it might be resolved in a week. I hope to God it is. Oh, and there must really be a God because my mom and Diana ARE going to the reunion!! Yay!

On my way home I stopped by Vons, but a smaller one I don't usually go to. I got some raspberry lemonade, mini bear claws and these other treat stuff - cream puff in chocolate and chocolate truffle. Would have been better if I'd had a spoon instead of having to use my fingers. LOL! 

ANyway, after I got home, I laid down and went to sleep. My mom woke me around 1:30pm. She needed me to take her to the Grossmont pharmacy so she could get her tabs. We stopped at the post office so she could get stamps. We went to that pharmacy, then she wanted to go to Walmart. I went in with her. I got a few things, but then I took out my book at the McDonald's - getting more Soda (I had gotten a drink at another McDonald's). "Ice Cold" is really an awesome book. Anyway, from there, we went back home. I got online on Cafemom and posted some stuff and caught up. Then Diana wanted to go to AAA and Costco and I took her. She was pleasant enough. Turns out she's still sick. That's not a good thing. I think she needs to see a doctor, but she isn't going to - especially because they're leaving tomorrow for San Francisco and the reunion. 

After that, I was back on the computer until Jordan got up. I watched "Burn Notice" but after that Jordan and I went to Vons. He got two sandwiches and I got a sandwich and a chicken cesare salad. We each got a Sobe to drink and then these little creampuff things - like what I had that morning. After that, he picked up a prescription for me and we headed to Walmart. I picked up some treats. I upset Jordan though, when I didn't buy the "Addam's Family" movie pack. I still might get it, but not yet. Anyway, we came home and now Jordan is in his room, very awake. The treats I bought are in the car since my mom was still awake. I have the alarm set for 5:00am to wake my mom up. 

So that's it. I have nothing to do tomorrow, but I do have a commitment on Saturday to get the car fixed - that board that got recalled or whatever. Anyway, I think that's it. I'm exhausted. It's after 1:00am. Time for bed.

              

The Paxil Upset

Well, it's been a long day. But it was nice to wake up to Cassie. I wanted to go back to sleep for a little bit, but I got moving. I didn't realize Susan was bringing the girls over so early. Though I told her the appointment was at 10:00am. But that was okay. We left early enough to stop at the store for donettes and for me to get a diet Dr. Pepper from McDonald's. I knew approximately where I was going, but I wasn't sure where exactly. Anyway, we headed down there and I drove around another 15-20 minutes just trying to find this place. If Kate wouldn't have called, I might have figured it out eventually, but she told me where they were and boom. We made it there. First Kate talked to Cassie alone while I figured out paperwork. Then she took me back to talk with her. She thinks Cassie would benefit from a low dose of paxil. I think so too, especially when school starts. But OMG! When Jason found out he was an asshole telling me that he wasn't going to make her take them. I told him I was the mom and I had to make the decision and he flipped out. Tried to tell me that because he lived with her it should be his decision. I corrected him on that. He said take her then. I told him I'd pick her up tonight, but he'd have to explain it. I knew he couldn't handle it. He was apologizing and everything. I also talked to Susan who was trying to say medication is bad too, but this is what was recommended by a professional - a competent professional. Not like those quacks they have at El Cajon County Mental Health. Anyway, it eventually all worked out. He apologized. He's not thrilled with the idea but it will be a low dose. I'm sure it won't be over 20mg. I'm hoping it will help her out when it comes to school. Of course, she has a full Physical on the 11th. I need to talk to her doctor about it. Because Cass is on a waiting list for therapy and psychiatry. It's going to take time. So Kate suggested going to the doctor and asking her for the paxil. So that's the plan.

Something cool happened with my groups. There was a woman who had just started a movie group and I told her I'd join hers if she'd join mine and she did!! It's cool! I have someone that will actually POST!! Then I decided I'd invite her to "I'm not Fat! I'm Fluffy" and she joined!! She also posted a couple of things. FINALLY!! So I'm happy about that.

I also finished reading "State if Fear" and now I'm reading "Ice Cold" by Tess Gerritsen. So far I'm over 100 pages into it. It's just that good! I think I'll finish it pretty quickly. Then I'm going to read the book Cassie left called "Fallen." I'm glad I am reading. I just wish I had more stories by Tess Gerritsen. I really love her work. 

Anyway, Jordan and I had raviolies for dinner. That was good. But we're both hungry again. But I have to finish this and then maybe wait until Diana's upstairs. Though I think we're just going to go eat. Diana was pleasant enough earlier. She invited us to have some of her corn. But still. I don't trust her farther than I could throw her, but I'm going to go with this calm for now. I just don't want shit from her. I don't want her attitude. We'll see, I guess. 

Well, I'm skipping class tomorrow so that I have the fuel to make it to Welfare on Thursday. I have to be re-evaluated for benfits. I don't have a note from my therapist, but I hope they don't give me issues about it. I can get them and they usually give me a stupid form to take to him anyway. Ugh! I hate this crap, but I got to do what I got to do.

Okay, this was probably pretty disjointed. My brain is sort of scattered, but all in all I'm okay. I watched "Deadliest Catch" and "After the Catch" and now it's time to maybe get that cereal and head to bed.

Later!