Waiting On Money!

Well, I've decided that I'm going to stop numbering the days, but I still need to account for my weight and eating. I kind of blew it today all the way around. I had a piece or raisin toast with peanut butter instead of a shake. Then for lunch I ate a Big Mac and a caramel iced coffee. Then I finally did have a shake, but then I had a piece and a half of pepperoni pizza. I figure I was bad today, but I'm going back on track first thing in the morning. I have to be strict this week. I want to get back to losing weight and I'm not sure I have been. And I need to lose those last 17 pounds.

My mom found a scale that could weigh me, but it costs $50. I think I might get it. I wouldn't worry constantly if I had something in front of me to measure my progress or lack there of! So that's something on my list to get.

Anyway, I got my SSI! I have met with the woman that needed my information. This month I get the first installment of my retro check. The next one will be in August and the rest will be given to me next February. I wasn't happy at first, but thinking about it, I like it a lot. It spreads out my money so I will have money for different parts over this year!! It won't be gone all at once! So that's a good thing.

But I'm going to have quite a bit of money in a few days. My retro check is going to be around $2500. Then I'll be getting this month's $571 and then around the first I'll get another $571 for next month. I think there's also more money I'm getting, but I'm happy with this. And it's going to allow me to do things I need and want to do. First I get the car fixed! That is my top priority. Then I was going to see about getting a bed, but Jason and wonder that he is found me a bed for $60. Can't get better than that. Plus the bed is only 10 months old! Awesome!! So that's something I don't have to worry about getting. I also want to get a new laptop. Something with TONS of storage for photos and stuff. I also need two new bathing suits. The one I have is all stretched out and falling apart really. So that will be nice! I also want to get some DVDs, take Jason and Susan out to dinner (another day I will be very bad, but will be planned) and then I'm giving them $300 for Daniel to hopefully come down here from Oregon. He apparently wants to, but Jason's a little worried that he may just take the money and use it for other things. But Daniel's a good kid. He wants to come down.

Anyway, I think I'll have enough for everything I want this time around. I'll think about what I want for my birthday - and I'll have to set aside money for Christmas this year! I want it to be a nice Christmas. But the thing that irritated me the most today was my mother. I haven't even had the surgery yet and she's already saying how she wants us out of the house. Ugh! I mean I need to have the surgery, then I need to recover! That might take months! It depends, I guess. Not that part of me doesn't want to be out on my own. I need to find out if there is a way to speed up housing too. I would like a place in El Cajon.

All I've been able to think about is the money coming. I'll have to set up a checking account and get direct deposit. It's a lot safer than getting checks in the mail. That's something good. It was never a thing to do with the welfare since I had the card. I'm just happen to be getting a little more money every month too. From what I understand I'll still get more income for Cassie and I'll still get food stamps and Medi-Cal. I feel like I'm in a better place financially. Guess we'll see what the future brings.

Well, I'm finally tired. Tomorrow it's back to the gym and water aerobics and getting my ass back on track. No cheating! I deserve to be thin and happy! I need to remember that.

Guess that's it. Time for bed. My goal is to get back into writing my blog again. I think it helps clear my head. Night!

Day 60 - Think This Will Be Short . . . Not?

I got up and let Cassie stay home again. She was really upset last night. I went back to sleep for a little bit, but I did get up and get ready for the gym. Water Aerobics wasn't so fun today, but I was having an anxiety attack through most of it. I did put on lotion after the shower and some of my cream, but I still got itchy. I think I'm just going to have to deal with it. 

When I got home I ended up taking a nap. Of course, Jason and Cassie were still at odds or rather Cassie was at odds with everyone. I needed that nap badly. Then I woke up. Talked to Sandra at SSI briefly. I have an appointment for next Friday and I need proof of income for the last year and a half or so. I'll have to call welfare either tomorrow or Monday. The sooner I get what I need, the better. 

I then also took my mom to get her nails done. I came back home and Cassie was talking about going to her father's. I told her she wasn't going until after the school year was over. She was angry at me for it, but oh well. Eventually, things worked out with Jason and she went over there and I think things are back to normal. I just feel that Cassie is still grieving and now she's worried about losing Grandpa Roger too. Maybe she'll go up for the summer.

Anyway, I picked up my mom from getting her nails done, though I stopped for a diet Dr. Pepper at McDonald's first. Once we got home, I was on the computer. I played on Cafemom. I posted in my groups - not all of them! But I did some posting in "I'm Not Fat! I'm Fluffy!" I got a new member. Members seem to like the recipes! That's cool. I just wish I could get other people to participate. I closed the Q & A forum and will just ask questions in the general forum and see if I can't get more people to participate. It might work . . . Then I posted some love songs onto my "Holiday Dreaming" though I should do more there. Maybe tomorrow I'll focus on it. Once Valentine's Day is over, It's on to St. Patty's day. More forums! Then in the new group I joined I read the spoilers for "The River." It was suggested I look for it on Hulu.com and sure enough it was there!! So I watched it. It was pretty good. I like the characters and the story was interesting. I'm going to try to catch it every week on Hulu if nothing else.

Well, dinner was good. I actually got full, but then I got a call from Jason saying the blockbuster near me was going out of business and to check it out. I decided I would so I told my mom I was going to go out to get dressing - which the store ended up not having at the moment - but I thought there were a lot of movies that were realaly cheap, but they weren't as cheap as I hoped. They were $10 apiece so I didn't get a couple I wanted. I did get "Transformers- Dark of the Moon." At least I have all three movies now. I was bad though. I had a huge rice crispy treat - 300 calories! But that's the last thing I'm going to weat today except for maybe some cuties or something. But I think I'm doing okay. Especially if I get back on track with the water aerobics.

Guess that's it for now. I need to use some cream on my rashes and change into my PJs. Time for bed!

 

Day 52 - Slept All Day Literally!

I literally slept all day. I made the mistake of taking a muscle relaxant last night and it knocked my ass out! I didn't even go to the gym. I couldn't keep my eyes open. In fact, I slept until almost 4:30pm! I didn't bother to get dressed. I just grabbed my sweater, my wallet, my book "Beautiful Creatures," and my keys. After all, therapy was at 5:00pm. I did stop at McDonald's for a diet Dr. Pepper. I had to have something. I also took my multi vitamin and medication before I left as well.

Therapy went well. I filled in Dr. Tess about all the good things going on. He agreed that it should keep me positive. I need to make sure that I go to the gym tomorrow and that I don't forget my doctor's appointment at 3:00pm. But for the first time in a long time some really good things have happened. The only thing better would be finding out that I got Section 8! But I'm happy with what I have been given to me. The weight loss and the SSI. And maybe at the end of the year I'll find out that my book will be published. At least I hope so! I am hoping this is my year! So far so good.

Anyway, tonight I watched my "Ghost Hunters" and "Face/Off." I also was on Cafemom for a long time. I added posts to "Plus Sized Moms" because there is a game to post as many posts as you can. I've posted about 7 tonight I think. Plus I worked on my "Holiday Dreaming." I did a little bit on Facebook as myself and as Karissa. I uploaded a Pix of Karissa's treats. LOL! I have to admit that I also checked out Denise's Timeline. She put on a bunch of stuff. That's where I got the idea to put Cassie and Jordan's birthdays on the timeline. She went to her different places she's lived too. I would maybe do that for here, but there was really no other place I would want to put down. I don't exactly remember dates anyway when it comes to our moves. But I'll try to think of other things to put on the timeline. Maybe when I met friends or ex friends. We'll see what happens.

Guess that's it. It's after midnight and I need to get up early to get Cassie up for school. And tomorrow is just going to be another great day. I get my money tomorrow too! At least it's been coming on the 2nd for awhile now. So I'll get to go shopping tomorrow too! I just have to make a list.