I Might Be Filing a Lawsuit on Someone Who Slandered Me.

Unlike her, I am not going to list her full name. I have only referred to her as Denise. Well, Denise, on her own blog and full view of the public she not only slandered me (yes, I know I shouldn't have bothered going back to her blog, but I had a gut feeling and it was right), but she used my full maiden name, my married name AND my Pen Name. She accused me of turning her life upside down that I'm the cause of her blood clots in her body now. She really thinks I want to ruin her life? I personally think if I wanted to do that, I probably would have had a CHANCE if I had used her full name to name her in all this. But since she's gone so far as to list my names I'm going to look into lawyers tomorrow. I have a case for slander so I think I might pursue it. You know, the funny thing is, if she hadn't stooped this low, I would have cared less. So who is really trying to ruin who's life? The most I ever did was reach out to her nicely. Since then, I rarely check her out. As I said, my gut told me too. So tomorrow I talk to talk to a few lawyers and see what I  might be looking at. If I have a case, I could ruin her life if I really wanted to. I'll have to decide that tomorrow. However, if she takes my names off, then maybe I'll drop it. If not, then we see how the dice fall.

Anyway, just wanted to get this out. Tomorrow should be interesting.

Goodnight all!

Easy Peasy Breezy Day

Today was simple. I woke up at 10:00am. I had the place to myself for the day with Cassi at her boyfriend's and Jason and Susan at Sea World. I didn't really do a lot except for what I needed to get done. I worked on some letters. I got one finished and sent out with papers I were supposed to return (thought I HAD returned them - oops!).  was glad I got that done! That was important!  I also posted in some groups on FB and stuff. I also cleaned out the litter boxes, washed Karissa's dish, called my mom and whatnot! I also worked on the story. I have more of an idea about the bad guy. Not just his name and what he does for a living and how he talks and looks. There are others around too that might be looked at as suspects. It's good to feel as if that part of my brain is working again! For awhile there it was just gone! And now I am feeling so inspired and just want this to really flow. The more I delve into my characters the better the story will be! I just haven't been this inspired in a long time. Who knows? Maybe this will really be the start of something else that's great!

I haven't eaten much, which is a good thing. I think I had a sandwich toward noon, I was also drinking regular coffee. I had a bowl of cereal a couple hours later. I then had two piece of corn bread with butter and honey, some mac n'cheese for dinner and a nice hot fudge sundae to round things out. Jason and Susan had brought me that home when they went to get their own treats from Mickey D's. I wouldn't say it was much, but I would say pretty yummy! :-)

I am really happy that my day was easy, that I felt good and that I got stuff done! There were no down moments, which always makes for a good day!

This evening I helped my best friend start a blog, which was fun! I got to set it up and pic out the style of it and all that. She told me what she wanted and I did my best to accommodate. Of course, I did have an issue of writing in the wrong page domain name and I forgot how to get to that to edit it. It took me probably about 10-20 minutes. I didn't give up and so I found what I needed and made the correction! Yay! So she has one blog up at the moment. She has another she wants me to post, but it will probably have to be done tomorrow. It's getting late and I have to go to sleep at some point! LOL! I'd like to wake up around 9:00am tomorrow. I could even set my alarm, but I kind of let God decide when to wake me, unless I really need to be up in the morning for something. I haven't decided if the fish tanks need cleaning tomorrow. I might take care of it. I don't want to have to do it on my birthday, though it's really not that bad and it doesn't take that long. But who says you can't train fish. When they see me they dance for me! :-) And then they start looking up knowing I'm going to feed them! They are so cute! You can get close to fish just like a cat or dog. Well, not exactly, but close!

Okay, I did some reading, I did some writing and got some things done! Today was definitely another good day!

Now it's time to rest and hopefully sleep! ;-)

Sometimes We Just Ask For It . . .

Well, what can I say about today? LOL! Well, I almost woke up for the day about 6:15am, but I was tired enough to go back to sleep and I slept! I slept until about 10:15am. I got to spend some time with Jason before taking him to the trolley for work. When I got back Cassi's therapist from her new school came to greet us and finish the intake and registration forms. School starts on September 3rd and they still don't have the school ready for students or teachers or therapists! LOL! It's time to get it together people!! But she was very nice and I think Cassi clicked with her, which is a GREAT thing!! I think her last therapist was definitely not her type and she wasn't good with time management. She actually stiffed her on time, which once or twice, I get, but every time?? That was kind of the last straw with me. I don't know. She seemed nice to me, but I think on some level it was kind of fake. Not that I know for sure. Maybe that's how she was. But I also know not every therapist is a good one - from personal experience. Though I have been pretty lucky with most of mine. 

After our meeting with her, I just kind of took care of the litter boxes, washed my Karissa's food bowl and fed her. She was all getting in  my face like "FEED ME, MOM! I'M STARVING!!" Not like she doesn't have a bowl of food to graze on when she's hungry! LOL! Then Susan got home and she was so nice to pick up a prescription for me on the way home so I didn't have to use my fuel too much. That was awesome of her! Then I had a session with my therapist over the phone. That was good and I talked a few things out. That just seems how I work. I talk them out with myself, with others . . . It's a good skill I think. So that's something I get a lot out of.

Susan said she was making dinner tonight, but we all kind of forgot about it until around 8:00pm. After that it was kind of like. "I'll cook tomorrow." "Okay, works for me." I went and grabbed a sandwich! No biggie and I shared it with my Karissa! She enjoyed it a lot! :-) Then I started a letter to one of my prisoners. He's a sweet guy. It helps that I can read his writing. It's unusual and not the easiest to read, but once you get the hang of it, it's not too bad! I'm getting pretty fluent in it, or I am better at deciphering words. I don't know. One of the two. I posted some stuff in my groups on Facebook. There's always something new on there to learn or whatever.

Then for kicks, I looked up a previous friend of mine (from the Junior High Side of Life) who I used to spend some time stocking for here and there. It was just to kind of keep up with what was going on with her and I admit that at once point it was definitely stalking, but it wasn't like I was ever going to hurt her or track her down in person or something. She tells people I'm stalking her like I'm out to get her! Go figure. Anyway, I was just curious tonight. I rarely even care anymore, but she got a book published and I was proud of her for that. So I checked her out a bit. I sent her a note of how I was proud of her for that and like expected I didn't get a response. No big deal. Then I got this wild hair up my butt for some reason and I decided to do a blog search for her. I found it! And you know, it was my own fault for reading it, but I did get a little upset. The stalking thing is just out of control in her mind. Like what am I going to do to her? Then she claims my friend Nicole and I tried to deliberately ruin her marriage because we had been unhappy in ours?? What sense does that make?? Yeah, we're going to ruin your marriage because ours sucked! That is just stupid. No one in their right mind would do that. Then she claims she didn't call her daughter a cunt when she did. She admitted it an said she had apologized to her daughter. Isn't that having done it? What I really feel is that she makes up the way she wants it in her head and she says it so much she finally believes it. It's sad, but if she hadn't been obsessing about writing and trying to get me to do editing - which at the time I had to do A LOT for her. I'm sure she's improved a bit in 5 years. But THAT is what she got pissed at me for. I stopped writing for her - which I didn't get past three chapters anyway because I just couldn't get into her story without using my own character and that's no way to write. I didn't have a feel for it. I couldn't do it. My life got to the point where I was constantly stressed about it because she wanted me to write it. I should have just gone with the original plan and just edited what she wrote instead of having to try to rewrite any of it. But either way, it's under the bridge now for me. But she still harbors all this anger, bitterness and vengeance for me and honestly, I don't get it. Even Nicole's story with her is not what she said. It was bizarre to say the least back then. I won't get into details, but either her husband and son lied to her a lot or something. No one did anything to ruin her marriage or deliberately hurt her. I'm sorry she got hurt and I have always been sorry about that. But let's not make a mistake about what she's REALLY angry about. I left her high and dry with the writing. The day I told her I wasn't going to write her story for her anymore she dropped me as a friend. I will admit one thing I did wrong. I emailed her kids and told them that regardless of everything I would be there for them. Anyway, I should have known better because I have kids and they stick up for me. But it was so emotionally stressful I had a lapse of judgment. That's what I have to say about that. But then she used her kids and her kids friends to hurt me, my daughter and I'm sure if they could have they would have hurt my son. But does that warrant hatred and bitterness for the rest of your life? Come on! Five years should be enough time to get over yourself! Am I wrong, people? But she really believes the spiel she gives now. That's sad. And you know what? She stalks me too. I wouldn't be surprised if she's reading this. 

Okay, that was my rant. I feel better now and I am done with her. God closed that door for a reason. It's just sad because I would have supported her on her journey. Well, so be it. It is what it is, right?

Okay, other than that, there's nothing else I can say except I am done for the day. I am going to take a bath, do some reading, take my meds and go to sleep! :-)

Feeling Like I am in a Field of Poppies!

For the last day and a half I have been so foggy and tired. I realize that I have started my monthly. PMS wasn't too bad this time, which is ALWAYS a GOOD thing! LOL! I know guys prefer girls not to wig out at that time of the month. LOL! 

Anyway, I'm still having cramps, but I have been so sleepy! Literally, it feels like I wandered into Dorthy's field of poppies on her way to the Emerald City. I just laid down and slept a lot. I mean through yesterday morning, the afternoon, last night, this morning - when I FINALLY got up around 10:30am - then I took a nap about an hour or so after that. Since then, I have tried to stay away and have, but I have to say I am still feeling groggy. I guess that means I'll sleep deep again tonight . . . maybe. The cramps SUCK!!! However, the foggy and tired feeling is probably worse!

Outside of that, things have been going pretty good! I have another blog that I started called - Krystina Grant's Writings. I'm trying to get it active. I have posted a few things, but there hasn't exactly been a lot of traffic and no followers, which is a bit sad. I also have a page on Facebook of the same name and there are at least 11 people that like that page. I still want more people to come visit and enjoy. I really want more people to get to know me and my writing. I think it will happen, but it will take time, like most good things. Nothing happens over night - except on rare occasions! Which has happened before.

What else can I say? Not much has really been going on except the sleeping and I had crazy dreams! I read this book I was given within a day and everyone was surprised I was able to, as if it were something difficult to comprehend, but in the dream I got it, no problem! That was a good dream to me. I had a few other strange ones, but that was the one that stood out the most.  I also did finish reading "Alex Cross," "Alex Cross, Run," "The Big Bad Wolf" and then I start on the next Alex Cross book tonight. At least I think I'll start reading it tonight - "Roses are Red." James Patterson is an awesome writer. There are several more of his books that I want - I want to read all the Alex Cross books before I read others by him. What can I say? I really like his character, Alex Cross.

Well, Jason made dinner tonight which was sweet of him. He and Susan crashed hard when they got home. I wanted to make dinner for them, but I was told Susan was going to cook or that Jason was and to be honest, feeling foggy and tired as I have been, I really didn't feel like making anything. However, just as I went out there to just make myself a hot dog or something, Jason told me to go back to my room. LOL! Basically he was cooking, so I didn't mind being told to go to my room! I also got served in my room, in bed! Can't beat that! :-) And it was something simple which is pretty much what I cook too - Mac 'n cheese with hot dog pieces. I think, if I feel up to it, I might cook tomorrow. There are several things I can cook. Unless Jason wants to cook. I love his BBQ chicken! Yum! It's definitely one of  my favorites! Or he might make chili mac which is something else I like.

Anyway, I think I'm going to call this a night here shortly and let this foggy, tired feeling take me back to the land of dreams. I need to get water first! :-P

                 

Happy to Be Me!

What can I say about today? Busy? Productive? Happy for the most part? How about it all? I went to bed last night pretty late. I ended up sleeping in until 10:00am when Jason finally woke me up. It was good I slept, but I needed to get him to work. When I came home Cassi was awake. Apparently we had woken her up when we were leaving. :-( I didn't even get dressed at that point because I was a bit rushed. LOL! I just stayed in my Pajamas. :-) Even into the noon hour. Cassi wanted her boyfriend to come over and I really like him so far and I believe this will be her first REAL relationship. They both want to take it relatively slow and really just let things flow, like being friends. What I really like is that he's a good influence on her. He wants to become a cop. Maybe even go into the FBI! He also handles time very well! I just like him a lot! Even Jason wasn't upset over this boy. Usually he has a cow when she has a boyfriend or even a boy friend over. But this one might be the real deal. I hope so. I want to see them happy together!

Anyway, I got dressed and started cleaning up the kitchen counters and reorganizing things that were on them. I picked him up from the trolley, we came back and I finished the kitchen counters (Except a little one near the microwave). I put stuff on it that I wasn't entirely sure where else to put. LOL! After that, I went back into my bedroom and let them hang out and watch a movie together. While they were watching the movie, I worked on a letter to a prisoner I've befriended. Unfortunately I haven't finished it yet. Maybe tomorrow morning! :-) I was also on Facebook working on a couple of my groups and then added something to my Page called "Krystina Grant's Writings." I also added something to my Blog of the same name. I also wrote  down some recipes that I want to make. I have been so into cooking lately! Just simple stuff and different variations. So far haven't had a miss yet and that makes me feel so good! It gives me more and more confidence to keep on cooking. I haven't enjoyed cooking like this for YEARS! 

I also cleaned out the litter boxes, Karissa's food bowl and eventually feed her. Then I made dinner - Steak Fajita Rice Dinner. Really simple and turned out yummy. It was also super delicious! Everyone liked it!  Yay! After serving and eating myself, I went back to my room and put the sheet back on my bed. I toss and turn at night and it pulls the corner up. That drives me crazy! LOL! I also swept the bathroom floor a little. Someone else needs to get it up and out. My back started aching tonight, but I am not unhappy with the day. 

I just wish that I could get a little more likes on my FB page and more hits on my other blog. But we'll see what happens! Maybe tomorrow I might work a new story or keep going on an older one. I have two I have started and haven't finished not to mention tons of ideas! 

I have just been feeling good lately!! I don't know if it's a mild hypomania, but I haven't crashed yet and my monthly is due any day now. Usually I wouldn't be this happy, calm or productive! I have really been so happy for the last few weeks. I feel so productive and hopeful about the future! Plus being in an environment where I am loved and appreciated for what I do and not bitched and moaned at for not having done something, or not doing it right or just constant negative attitude. Then being accused of having a bad attitude!! LOL! Go figure! I like who I am right now and that's worth my weight in gold! Seriously - I'm not exactly thin yet! :-D

Well, I am ready to get back into my pajamas, take my night meds and crash! We'll see how things go tomorrow! ;-D