Day 11 - What a Day to Start!

I was going to wake up at about 8:15, but I was pretty tired and so I slept in about 10 minutes longer. Not much, but I just wanted a little more sleep. But I got up and got ready to go. I had to take my mom to Costco to do some last minute shopping. And believe me, we had to get there early!! I got ready, took my protein shake, took my vitamins and meds then we left.

I was so thirsty by the time we'd gotten there. I should have grabbed water before we'd left. But I didn't. We went into Costco and I followed my mom around. Then she tasked me to get a few things. That didn't take me long. I also found an un-opened bottle of water and drank it. It didn't go anywhere in the store and I just couldn't keep my thirst in check. But my back started hurting so I took a seat on the bench by the pharmacy and waited for her. While I waited, I also read more of "A Christmas to Remember." It was getting really good. I was really happy to have help to get the stuff out to the car and into the trunk.

When we got home, I woke up Jordan to get the stuff into the house. He went back to sleep after that. I finished reading "A Christmas to Remember" and I really loved it. After that I decided I wanted to go up to Grossmont Center - dreading the crowd. But I wanted to go to Barnes and Noble to get Tess Gerritsen's "Vanish." But they were out. I called the Santee store and they were out too. That did suck. But I went to Walmart, which was a pain in the ass trying to find a space too, though I ended up with a good spot. Then I decided instead of a book, I'd see what I could find in the $5 DVD bin. Turns out I found "High Plains Drifter," which is one of my favorite revenge flicks. I always said if I found it I'd buy it! So I did. I guess it was meant to be! After that, I got the milk and bread I needed. I also found something I can drink that's not soda - 0 calorie Lifewater by Sobe! Then my mom wanted me to find her foot lotion. I did! Then I found this massage ball I was actually getting for Susan, but in the end my mom liked it so I gave it to her for Christmas. 

Jordan wasn't happy when I woke him up again to pull in groceries but he did it even though it put him in a seriously crappy mood. I went and got on the computer. I played on Cafemom for a long time. I posted stuff in "I'm Not Fat! I'm Fluffy!" and I announced that "Christmas Dreaming" is going to turn into "Holiday Dream" so that we can incorporate other holidays.

Dinner was great - rotissery chicken breast, corn and a lovely salad with my light House Dressing. It was yummy! Then it was back to the computer. I wasn't really watching anything either. I did have on "River Monsters" earlier. But I wasn't really watching it. Then I saw this show on about extreme Christmas trees and Christmas lights so that's what I'm had on since.

Right now I'm chatting with Steve. He and I haven't talked in awhile. It's good to be in touch. I think he misses me and he was always a nice guy. We were always good friends. I've been sharing my excitement for Christmas and my gastric bypass and losing the weight. I can't wait!

Anyway, I suppose that's about all I have to say. Outside of playing on the computer I didn't do much . . . Oh but there was one thing I need to mention. I STARTED MY FRICKEN PERIOD! Ah well. I knew it was going to start before Christmas. The good thing is, right now there is no PMS symptoms so maybe I'll be good this year. But it also explains of the cravings I've been having. I just hope I don't bleed everywhere. I can never predict the flow . . . Ah well.

So now, I'm going to take my meds. Maybe get a mousse temptation and then go to sleep now that it's well past midnight. Got to get up early to go to water aerobics!

Later!

Day 3 - So Far So Good!

I woke up and took Cassie to school, but when I got home I went back to sleep. I just didn't have the energy to do much else. So I went to sleep. Then suddenly I get woken up by a voice outside my window! It was Jason! LOL! He and I talked for awhile. My mom actually made him breakfast which was nice of her and he appreciated it. Jason kind of had to talk me into taking my shake because I wasn't hungry yet. I guess I just need to put myself on a schedule so that's what I'm going to try to work on. Well, maybe not until next week . . . We'll see. After that Jason talked me into putting in the Disc I got from the Bariatric center. It has all the info on it. I ended up not reading it all. In fact, Jason didn't have enough of an attention span to do it either! LOL!

Susan picked Cassie up from school early but we told my mom that it was a half day to avoid bitching and moaning. Cassie came in to get Jason and to give me a hug and kiss. Plus to grab a couple of things too. 

After they left my mom wanted to go get her hair permed. We waited for a bit then around 1:30pm I took her up to Fantastic Sam's and while she was there, I went to Walmart. I needed to get vitamins and more protein powder. Then my mom wanted decaf coffee and I needed to get more non-fat milk. I even got a movie for my stocking! After I did the little bit of shopping and looking around, I went to McDonald's and bought the large drink cup, but instead of soda I filled it with water. I must have drank at least 3 cups full and that cup isn't small! Then a woman with a baby sat at the table for a little bit. Then another woman sat down and was determined to talk to me while I was trying to read more of "A Christmas to Remember." She was nice enough and I talked with her. She gave me her phone number, but not sure I'll call her. I'm so bad at calling people anyway. 

Finally my mom showed up. We did a little more shopping and after we checked out, we went back to McDonald's and got chicken Caeser salad and a small fries. I didn't eat much of the fries, but the salad was good! But by the time we got out to the car my back was ripped and it was hard for me to put the bags in the trunk. It was a good thing Jordan came out of the house to meet us. He had to take the bags in and put the stuff away by himself. He wasn't happy about it, but he's not a baby either. He is perfectly capable. I went to my room and rested. I then got online and went to Cafemom. Some bitch joined my "Christmas Dreaming" group just to spam it with links and then left. That pissed me off. She didn't even pay attention to where she posted stuff and I had to take a lot of time to move or delete posts. Ugh!! Then I made it a point to add more posts so that hers don't come up easily.

Anyway, I did work on "I'm Not Fat! I'm Fluffy!" a little bit. I checked out other groups, but everyone seems pretty quiet at the moment. So then I also did a search to see what Denise might have been up to and found out she is signed onto this one site and I joined just to join. I will probably will never use it, but it's just something else to check on every now and again.

Well, I am tired. I think I'm going to watch the new "Brad Melzer's Decoded" and then go to sleep. Maybe sooner. I really am exhausted. I did finally have another protein shake for dinner. I think it'll keep me full for awhile. If nothing else, I'll be full when I fall asleep. :-) That's the best I can ask for! LOL!

Tomorrow there is nothing on the schedule that I know of so we'll see how it goes. I just have to remember there's a ticket buy Saturday morning. I can use the money. I might be able to get another book for myself. I wish I had another $50 though. I would get Jordan this Assassin's Creed movie and then get Cassie the third book to her one series. Ah well . . . shit happens. But I think Christmas is going to be pretty good anyway! :-)

That's it. I'm laying down.



Christmas Shopping!!

Okay, I didn't wake up when I thought I might. I didn't sleep and each time I tried waking up it just didn't work. So again I slept until about 1:00pm. But I DID get my mother to the bank and then we went to Walmart. It was cool. She just wanted me to get socks and a scarf for Cassie. Well, they didn't have anymore of the scarves my mom had found last time. That happens at Walmart. You gotta grab it when you see it or else. LOL! Anyway, I found TOE SOCKS!! Cassie loves toe socks. Of course I called her to confirm so I guess she's going to know one thing she's getting. But I basically went to McDonald's and got a soda and a McDouble and looked over a Woman's World magazine. They didn't have personal insight in this one, but that's okay. They better have one next week though! LOL!

Anyway, on the way home, we swung by Amaya to pick Jason up, then went home. He carried in the stuff instead of me having to get Jordan which was nice. We stayed for a little bit but he convinced me to take him home. I decided it would be a good idea because I could stop at the bank and check my balance. I did and my money had come it!! I was so excited!! So I took Jason home. Went in long enough to go to the bathroom and then I headed to Grossmont. I got myself two Tess Gerritsen books from Barnes and Noble. Then I went to Walmart and got Cassie "Beautiful Darkness" and "Hush Hush" since "Beautiful Chaos" was too expensive. I also got Jordan "Assassin's Creed Revelations." I'm just glad there are books he's willing to read!! I think I'm going to give him the balance of the $20 I have allocated for Christmas for him and wrap up each bill or something. LOL! I don't know. I'll have to think about it. I also got my mom's Christmas gifts to Jordan. I got him a shit I think is hilarious. It says "Same Shirt Different Day" on it and since he wears his clothes more than once I think it's funny! I just hope he does too! I also got him socks. What's really cool is I don't feel like the kids are going to be lacking this Christmas. It's like at least I have stuff for them. I guess it's easier when I know there are things that I can get them that aren't too expensive. Like Cassie's books since she's a reader now. It was under $20 to get her two books! I mean, that's awesome!! I did, however, forget to get toilet paper so I hope my mom can cover me. And I don't know if I'm going to be able to go to a Chinese Buffet or not. I want to, but if I don't have the money, I don't have the money. Christmas is more important to me.

Well, outside of getting Cat littler, Cat food, nose spray and vitamins, that was everything. Now I just wait until I have my food money. Then I'm going to get stuff for Jordan and Cassie's stockings - if I can find them or buy cheap ones again - and then things like Jones Soda for gifts too. I'll have to see how much it is, but either way I'm really liking this season so far!

I've also done some working on Cafemom. I joined a couple more groups. Or rather I joined one for sure. I have applications in to two others maybe three. But no new members for my "Christmas Dreaming" yet, but we'll see what happens. I actually had one of my members post a recipe today in "I'm Not Fat! I'm Fluffy!" which was AWESOME!! So even though there hasn't been enough action for me, it's been good. I also posted things in "The Writer's Workshop" as resources to help other writers.

I haven't worked on my fan fiction today. In fact, I still might tonight, but I'm kind of tired so we'll see. TV kind of sucked tonight. I watched "Criminal Minds" which there were a couple of episodes I hadn't seen before so that was cool. But I went to watch "Sanctuary" only to find out it was the same episode they showed on Tuesday. Ugh! Then I have a re-run of "Fact or Faked." But that's okay. It's mostly been background noise anyway.

Guess that's it! I'll try to sleep tonight as always and probably like always I won't sleep until late. Ah well.

Fan Fiction and Cafemom Fun!

Today was a pretty good day. I may not have wanted to wake up, but I did and picked up Cassie. I was going to take my mom to the bank, but we decided tomorrow morning would be better. I've just decided that I'm going to have to wake up early and deal with it. I mean, if I kept sleeping late nothing will ever change and I need to try to get a normal schedule at some point.

Anyway, Cassie couldn't wait for Susan to pick her up. But that was just because she wanted to hang out with Ian more.

As for me, I have been playing on the computer on Cafemom. I added posts again to "I'm Not Fat! I'm Fluffy!" though I didn't add as much as I normally do. But I did get the book review in for "The Mephisto Club." Then I posted stuff in "Christmas Dreaming."

Then my mother surprised me. After I helped her make her bed and her little bitching session about me she got dinner for us at Beef 'n Bun. I drove and she paid. It was fantastic!! We each got fish and chips, I got a chocolate peanut butter shake while my mom got a strawberry one. That was good too!! Then we got Jordan a collosal burger meal. He was still sleeping so he didn't get to eat his fresh. He fault for not waking up! LOL!

Anyway, I went back to my computer AND I started working on my fan fiction for Eyal Lavin. I reworked it for Christmas. It's the only way it works for me. I didn't get too far; maybe a page and a half. I might write more here in a little bit, but maybe not.

I watched "Burn Notice" tonight and OMG!! Anson is kind of interesting. He is a bad guy and not one I particularly like, but he has suddenly gotten rather interesting to me. We'll see what happens next week. These are getting more dramatic as they go on. I love that show. Then I watched "Covert Affairs" which is always a good show. After all, that's where Eyal came from! ;-)

Well, I guess that's it for now. I'll see whatelse I can do and then try to sleep. Maybe I'll sleep relatively early . . . yeah right! LOL! Oh well!

I Crashed HARD!

Last night I was still having trouble sleeping though I was exhausted so I took three ativan. I read for a little while, which for once it didn't keep me awake. I relaxed enough to drop to sleep. Of course, I slept and slept and slept. My mom woke me up around 1:00pm, but I also talked to Jason and Susan and asked them to pick Cassie up from school. In fact, I just let her stay there tonight. But I went back to sleep until around 4:30pm. Even then, I could have gone back to sleep. I might still be able to go back to sleep. I'm still tired. But we'll see. I mean, being tired is no garauntee as I well know.

Anyway, I had dinner when it was ready. It was good. It was fried onion chicken. Delicious. And we had it with mac n cheese and broccoli. I wanted the computer after that, but Jordan convinced me to let him keep it another hour. No big deal. I watched some TV. I watched "First 48." Then when I got the computer, I started playing on Cafemom. I made sure I posted stuff to "I'm Not Fat! I'm Fluffy!" then "Christmas Dreaming." I also posted in other groups. But I feel a bit foggy and slow today where yesterday I was scattered, but really trying to post like crazy. And I just feel a little off today. I'm not really up or down. Maybe it's more like a numb feeling.

But anyway, one of the things I was looking forward to tonight was the new episodes of "The Closer" and especially "Rizzoli & Isles." "The Closer" was great! Officer Rader found the leak in the department!! In "Rizzoli & Isles" we find out that Jane's mom has a crush on Bill O'Reiley. And that Corsak was willing to go to jail to protect his CI. Turned out Jane was able to find her and that the person that had killed their witness was the District Attorney! It was an interesting episode. I might do some reading tonight. I have about 100 pages left of "The Mephisto Club." Not that I'll read it all tonight. Of course, when I'm done with it, I don't know what I'll read. I have a couple of Christmas stories. Maybe I'll read one or two of them. We'll see! If I do read them, then I can post their reviews on my "Christmas Dreaming" group.

Well, that's it. Time to chill out. As for tomorrow, my mom said something about wanting to go to the doctor. If she makes an appointment I'll take her. Maybe I'll work on one of my Fan Fictions or Christmas short story. We'll see.

I've Been Awake More Than 35 Hours Straight

Well, I ended up not sleeping last night and not for a lack of trying. I took baclefen and two ativan and nothing. I relaxed but no sleep. My mind just kept going and going and going. Not too fast, but fast enough. It just didn't want to settle down. I mean, I was a little excited that I had come up with another group to run on Cafemom - Christmas Dreaming. Then I was thinking about a Christmas story I was thinking about writing and my fan fiction. Not to mention "The Mephisto Club," which is getting better and better by each page.

Anyway, I eventually just gave up sleeping. I got my iced coffee. In fact, I had two of them this morning. Not to mention two Extra Large Diet Dr. Peppers from McDonald's. Guess I'm kind of on a caffiene high too. Though usually caffiene doesn't do much to me. 

All I've really done today is play on Cafemom. Of course, nothing moves on there fast enough for me. No one seems to be replying. It is sort of driving me nuts. But I can't really focus on much else. I kind of had "River Monsters" on today. I watched part of "Transformers" which is a good movie though the second movie is my favorite of the franchise. After that, I put on "Food Network Challenge," but I didn't finish it because Jordan and I went out to get sodas and to pick up my medication. Thank god one of the meds was the ativan! LOL! I have taken two of them and with luck they'll help. While Jordan ran in for my meds, I did read a couple of pages of "The Mephisto Club" then went I got home, I put on "The Next Iron Chef: Super Chefs." I missed the first few minutes. But it was a great episode. Anne Buriel won!! Samuelsen was sent home. I know I spelled their names wrong. Ugh! But it was really a good episode. Now I'm watching "Iron Chef America" where the secret ingredient is caviar! 

Well, I think that's really about it. I hope I sleep at some point tonight, though I kind of want to do more reading. I don't know. I have felt pretty scattered today. I have worried about a hypomanic episode or worse, a mixed state. I guess it will really depend on how I feel tomorrow. Right now I just feel scattered, tired but not quite sleepy. Though I think the ativan is starting to work. It's relaxing me a bit.

Okay, that's it. I am done with this. I'm starting to relax. Thank god for ativan. I might sleep yet! So I'm going!

A Cafemom Kinda Day

I've been really good today!! I woke up around 11:30am when Jordan woke me up for breakfast. My mom had cooked sausage and hashbrowns. Unfortunately the hashbrowns got a little too crispy because my mom thought she'd turned the stove off, but she hadn't. Anyway, she was nice enough to fix me three eggs which is more than I usual have. I guess it was to make up for the hashbrowns! LOL! Either way, it was a nice thing.

I haven't done much today except play on Cafemom. I had to post more to "I'm Not Fat! I'm Fluffy!" and checked my other groups and replied to posts. I stopped long enough to each some lunch and to make a little dinner - where I pigged out on pie after it again. There's no pumpkin pie left now. Of course, there was only one piece left.

Anyway, I wanted to join a Christmas group, but I couldn't find one that was a fit for me so I ended up creating one. I call it "Christmas Dreaming." I might go back and change an forum or two, but so far I have something for everyone. I don't know if I can keep it up and my other groups, but I'm going to try!

I guess that's it. I have kind of been watching SyFy channel today, but I couldn't really tell you the name of the movies. I've been watching them on and off but that's about it. Now I just look forward to tomorrow.