Snakes, Friends an Shopping

Okay, it's Saturday and the last two days have been quite eventful! 

Yesterday was seriously busy. I got my money early and the first thing I did was go to the bank and pulled out money for fuel, for Cassi's backpack for school, supplies and some hair dye. Then I also pulled money out for two corn snakes. They are awesome! We had to drive to a Vons in Tierrasanta to meet the man giving us the snakes. They came with EVERYTHING - the two corn snakes, the large and good tank, all the accessories inside the tank including a nice big water dish. They also came with a heating pad and heating light. We got all of that and some bedding for $60. I could not say no! I really like snakes and it was a really good deal! Anyway, Cassi is sharing one of the snakes with Aunt Susan. Susan already named hers Sunshine. Cassi had a member of "Focus in Frame" name her snake. One of them is a huge Harry Potter fan so he got named Voldermort. :-) They are gorgeous and friendly. Sunshine is always trying to move around and go everywhere, while He who shall not be named, is very mellow and loves to just hang around - literally! He loves to hang around Cassi's neck or wrist. They are both really cute. We have to get some good pix of them. When I do I'll post them.

After we picked them up, it turned out that we were 2 miles away from Cassi's friend Josh, who she was going to hang out with that day anyway, so we picked him up. We got the snakes home. We stayed around a bit. Then I went shopping at Walmart. I had to get two bins for the snakes to eat in. They can't be fed in their enclosure. It's a safety thing. You don't want them thinking their getting fed when you put your hand in to pick them up! That would not be good! So while I was on my way shopping, I took the kids to the trolley. It was on my way really, or just out of my way. She went to do her shopping while I did mine. I managed to get everything on my list. It included everything from a shirt, to vitamins, Baking pans, to DVDs, cat food and treats and litter . . . I also made Cassi a key since she lost the last one. The head of the key is a skull. :-) Then I saw this really cute fox key chain. I wasn't sure she' want it. It's not like it went with the skull, but knowing the way we are, I didn't think she would have a problem. In fact, she loved it! So it was a home run!

After that, I went to Walmart Market and went shopping there. I did too much shopping though! I picked up everything from bread to rice and other things like coffee and creamers. I have bought enough stuff for a lot of lunches and a lot of dinners - plus corn bread, muffin and cake mixes. I even went back today to get more rice packets and ground turkey. But I was rally exhausted b the time I picked up Cassi from the trolley. In fact, I didn't make dinner. I actually bought some good Mexican food. Rolled tacos for Susie and Chili Relleno Burritos for Cassi and I. But last night I was exhausted and went to sleep relatively early.

Today, Cassi's friend Josh came here to visit. We went shopping for mice for the snakes. They were in need of a meal. So we ended up at Petco. Then my mom called and wanted me to pick up something for her, so I did that and we took it over to my mom's. We finally got to meet the new dog. Not so sure how to spell her name, but it means doughnut in French. We pronounce it "donay." She's a sweet dog! 

After that, we came home, feed the snakes. It was fascinating to watch them. We let them stay there for awhile, then Cassi gently put them back in their tank. Then I let them go about doing what they wanted while I ran to the store for the last few items I listed. Though I forgot carrots and broccoli though maybe Susie would like to buy those. She can go to Costco for them! :-)

Anyway, I got everything put away, chilled out for awhile - Cleaned litter boxes, fed Karissa and did the like. Then Cassi wanted to go see her friend Ramiro and it's probably going to be the last time she sees him for awhile so I took her there. On the way there we grabbed a sandwich and shared it. Then I dropped her off and came home.

I managed to do a few things, but even now, I am tired and ready to go to sleep. So anyway, that's a recap of the last to days. I think it's gone rather well, except for being just about broke again, but such is life! Money comes and then goes again. 

The Birthday, The Beach and a Day of Exhaustion

I know I haven't posted for a few days, but I've been a bit busy and tired! :-) Monday, the 26th, was my birthday. I was woken up earlier than I wanted to be woken up, but I had to take Cassi's friend Ray back home. Then she wanted to visit another friend, but changed her mind and staying home. That was kind of nice to have her around, though she was bored to tears pretty much! LOL! But for the most part Jason and I hung out together with Cassi and it was a nice quiet day. Then for the topper Jason and Susan went shopping and got everything for Jason's grilled BBQ chicken. They also got baked beans and a cake! The cake was triple chocolate and it was pretty good! :-) It was such a nice birthday. Just like I like them! Hanging with my family - some of my best friends in the WORLD! 

The following day Jason and I were talking about what to do. He suggested the beach and I thought, "Okay, I haven't been there awhile. Why not?" Jordan also wanted to spend the day with me, so as I went to pick up Jordan Jason started making sandwiches and get fruit and stuff. On the way back with him I also stopped at Albertson's and did some WIC shopping. October is the last month for Cassi. Anyway, we got 2 gallons of milk, cereal and juice. I also picked up some fruits and veggies. One of the things I bought was a strawberry and blueberry bowl. Those strawberries were the best ever!! So we took that to the beach too. On the way out Cassi had forgot her wallet and she needed it to hang out with her friend later so we had to go back. Then we finally got on the road. Jason had to guide me because I don't know how to get to any of the beaches really. Well, we went to Mission Beach. We put out the blankets and towels on the grass and then ate the sandwiches, fruit, Jason also picked up BBQ chips and sugar free Lofthouse cookies. They were GOOD!! Jason also got Susan to come meet us there after she was during. I changed into my swimsuit, but put my yellow skirt in a puddle in the bathroom without realizing it until I went to pick it up. Just  meant I was going to go home in my swimsuit and not changing again. 

Poor Jordan was so tired, he basically napped the whole time, but talk about a nice place to nap! So Jason, Cassi and I walked across the sand toward the water. It was an ordeal for me since I don't have great balance anyway because of my medication, and I sink way into the sand because I'm still pretty heavy. But I got there. Cassi got her feet wet and when she went in a little deeper she decided it was too cold. So she headed back to the grass and the blankets. Jason and I actually went about waist deep in and I had such a good time doing it. It reminded me of being a kid and all the days we spent at Silver Strand boogie boarding. It just made me smile. Those were some of the best days. I will always think on the beach as filled with good memories. But I hadn't been there in so long and I was always worried about getting sunburned. Well, we did have sun block, but it was a spray and it was breezy. Needless to say we still got burned, but mine wasn't so bad. It didn't take away how much fun I had. When Cassi's friend got there she left. Originally she was supposed to spend the night, but there was someone from her school coming over the following day to have us fill out surveys at 9:00am.

We stayed about 20-30 minutes longer, then Jason and Susan left to go out to dinner and then Jordan and I left. It was good to hang out with him for a bit. I had wanted him to spend the night, but that didn't work out. But I guess that was for the best because Cassi came home. But I made us some rice for dinner. I combined chicken fried rice with teriyaki rice. It turned out pretty well. Cassi had the rest so at least there was none to put away. I was well and thoroughly tired that night, but had a little trouble getting to sleep. But I got there.

I woke up about 8:30am and I knew I was going to be tired all day. For whatever reason I didn't get enough sleep or something. But I got up and got ready. I left Cassi sleep as long as she could. Jason woke up long enough to request that I meet this guy on the picnic tables out front because of the state of the living room. I won't go into it, but let's say there's a lot of stuff that should be in a bedroom really. Not in the living room so I understood where he was coming from. So when he arrived, I got Cassi up, let her get dressed as I took him to the benches. Even he thought this survey was stupid because we hadn't even had any services from the district. Go figure. But they needed Cassi to fill one out as well. It was the most stupid thing in the world to do. But we did it and it was done within 15 minutes.

After he left I just tried to do as much of my To Do List that I could do. I got most of it done, which was good. I took Jason to the trolley to get to work and then did more things. It got to a point though that we had to take a break, turn on the a/c and relax. I also made dinner last night for Cassi, Susan and I. I used 2 pkgs of Creole Garlic Butter flavored rice. I cooked up ground turkey. Steamed carrots and broccoli and then mixed it all together. It tasted pretty good. It wasn't spicy at all. I added sour cream to mine and to Cassi's. We love sour cream. :-) After that, I did throw up though, which was a bit sad, but needed. I ate too much I think. It was awhile later that I finally had a piece of cake. Th good thing is that I was so tired that I crashed. I was asleep around 9:00pm, because Jason said he looked in on me at around 9:30pm and I was out!

So far today has been a quiet day. Cassi and I woke up. I was feeling pretty good. I've been getting stuff done on my To Do List, not that there isn't more! LOL! But I am feeling good. I still get tired, but it has to be the heat. It's hot and muggy and miserable outside. I was driving in it earlier. I had to take Cassi to the trolley at Spring Street and then I had to take Jason to the Amaya trolley stop so he could get to work. Once I got back I turned on the a/c and have been chilling in the living room because it's cooler. It's kind of driving Karissa up the wall that I am not back in my room with her. She actually will come out here to be in the same room with me. She is my little love. I can't imagine my life without her. I worry about her passing a lot. But that's just because she's starting to get up there.

Anyway, I'm going to pull out something for dinner tonight and see what happens. I have no idea what I'm going to make, but I'll figure it out! :-) I'm pretty good about it! That's something else is nice. Everyone appreciates my cooking. It's awesome to be appreciated for something you do and I know it benefits everyone. I need to try some new recipes though! I have a few in mind.

Guess that's it for now! If anything interesting happens maybe I'll post again, but it's nice not to be so exhausted today and that I had a good few days. Times like this are awesome!

A Tad Bit Exhausted

What can I say? I went to sleep late and I woke up early! I was awake until about 12:20am. I usually don't stay up that late and I thought maybe I wouldn't be able to sleep, but I drifted off. But then I woke up around 6:30am and just couldn't go back to sleep. I was tired though, but I just kept working on my To Do List. I got a lot of it done early - took my morning meds, fed the Betta fish, gave Karissa treats . . . When it was time I let Jordan know it was time to take his med. Then I started a letter to one of my prisoner friends. I couldn't really work on my story though. Being tired like this creates problems for me. I just can't seem to concentrate. It's kind of why I didn't get far with my letter either. Putting those words together is challenging. LOL! At least like this! Tomorrow my goal is to finish the letter and get it out in the mail, but I have to get sleep tonight! I think I'll be going to sleep early tonight. That would solve everything! Well, the writing part of things anyway! ;-)

I made dinner tonight. I cooked my Taco Rice Dinner. The rice had too much liquid left, but it didn't take away any of the taste! It was delicious served in soft tortillas with shredded cheese and sour cream! It is so simple to make! I might post the recipe. I mean, literally, it doesn't get much easier. Okay, I'll post the recipe now.

Taco Rice Dinner

2 pkgs of Taco Rice sides

1 lb ground turkey

1 packet Taco Seasoning

Tortillas

Fiesta Shredded cheese blend

Sour Cream

Anything else you want to use as a topping

Prepare rice according to pkg directions. I use the microwave directions. While that's cooking, cook your ground turkey - can spice with garlic powder, black pepper and maybe a little salt. Don't drain because you don't have to. Add the taco seasoning to the cooked turkey and mix in well. 

Once the rice is done, add the ground turkey to it and mix together. Serve in tortillas and top with the cheese and sour cream or anything else you might want to add.

Last thing, enjoy! It generally serves 4-6 people I think. 

Anyway, it's a hit around here. It makes me happy to be able to cook. I didn't really feel up to it tonight, but it was just so easy. So I threw it together and though there was a little too much liquid in the rice, it didn't take away any of the flavor! :-) It's nice to be able to cook easy but yummy dinners. I want to start getting into using the crock pot more too!

What else can I say? Not much, I guess! LOL! I am just freakin' tired. Think I'm going to take a quick bath, take my night meds and go to sleep . . . I think sleep will be good tonight and I look forward to tomorrow. It's MY birthday! Not that there's anything planned, but it will just be a good day. I know it will!

That's it for this note from my insane mind! We'll see how sane I'll be tomorrow! ;-)

Easy Peasy Breezy Day

Today was simple. I woke up at 10:00am. I had the place to myself for the day with Cassi at her boyfriend's and Jason and Susan at Sea World. I didn't really do a lot except for what I needed to get done. I worked on some letters. I got one finished and sent out with papers I were supposed to return (thought I HAD returned them - oops!).  was glad I got that done! That was important!  I also posted in some groups on FB and stuff. I also cleaned out the litter boxes, washed Karissa's dish, called my mom and whatnot! I also worked on the story. I have more of an idea about the bad guy. Not just his name and what he does for a living and how he talks and looks. There are others around too that might be looked at as suspects. It's good to feel as if that part of my brain is working again! For awhile there it was just gone! And now I am feeling so inspired and just want this to really flow. The more I delve into my characters the better the story will be! I just haven't been this inspired in a long time. Who knows? Maybe this will really be the start of something else that's great!

I haven't eaten much, which is a good thing. I think I had a sandwich toward noon, I was also drinking regular coffee. I had a bowl of cereal a couple hours later. I then had two piece of corn bread with butter and honey, some mac n'cheese for dinner and a nice hot fudge sundae to round things out. Jason and Susan had brought me that home when they went to get their own treats from Mickey D's. I wouldn't say it was much, but I would say pretty yummy! :-)

I am really happy that my day was easy, that I felt good and that I got stuff done! There were no down moments, which always makes for a good day!

This evening I helped my best friend start a blog, which was fun! I got to set it up and pic out the style of it and all that. She told me what she wanted and I did my best to accommodate. Of course, I did have an issue of writing in the wrong page domain name and I forgot how to get to that to edit it. It took me probably about 10-20 minutes. I didn't give up and so I found what I needed and made the correction! Yay! So she has one blog up at the moment. She has another she wants me to post, but it will probably have to be done tomorrow. It's getting late and I have to go to sleep at some point! LOL! I'd like to wake up around 9:00am tomorrow. I could even set my alarm, but I kind of let God decide when to wake me, unless I really need to be up in the morning for something. I haven't decided if the fish tanks need cleaning tomorrow. I might take care of it. I don't want to have to do it on my birthday, though it's really not that bad and it doesn't take that long. But who says you can't train fish. When they see me they dance for me! :-) And then they start looking up knowing I'm going to feed them! They are so cute! You can get close to fish just like a cat or dog. Well, not exactly, but close!

Okay, I did some reading, I did some writing and got some things done! Today was definitely another good day!

Now it's time to rest and hopefully sleep! ;-)

As The Sun Sets . . .

I am winding down for the night. It's been a good day! Got almost everything done on my list. Yay me!! :-) But I have to admit I am still tired. The 36 hours of being awake really did take a toll. I'm not a teenager or a twenty-something anymore. I mean, I woke up at 10:00am and was still exhausted, but I was ready to get up too. I don't like to sleep the days away anymore. More proof I'm doing better now than I was living at home with my mom. My mom and I get to talk everyday now and there's no real tension. I love that part of it! Plus I just feel secure where I am. I'm with people that love me and would never do anything to intentionally hurt me. There is no serious complaining. In fact, it rarely happens at all! No one expects perfect. No one has a fit if the house doesn't look like a museum. It really is the place I belong for now! 

I worked on my list of things to get done. Cleaned the litter boxes, feed the fish, wash out Karissa's food bowl, wash dishes, take shower - I definitely needed one! LOL! Plus posting in groups on Facebook and pages and blogs. Also worked on letters to my prisoners and soldier. 

I also made dinner tonight. I knew Jason and Susan were both going to be tired. Jason wasn't sure he would like the BBQ turkey sandwiches - my version of sloppy joes. I don't like the taste of them. I just cooked ground turkey with some garlic powder, pepper and salt, drained it and added BBQ sauce. I think I would pick a different BBQ sauce next time though. I want to get Sweet Baby Ray's maybe! Also instead of serving it on bread, I'd like to have hamburger buns or rolls next time. I also made mac n cheese along with steamed broccoli - by special request! Turns out that it was a hit, though I was worried it wouldn't be. But it was after all! In fact, Susan took the last of mine that I couldn't eat! Yay! That's the one thing that's a good thing. I can't eat too much! :-) It's a very good thing!

Outside of that, I worked on my story more. Not really in the writing of it. I am working on Emily Sinclair's bio. I need to know her before I can write her well. Same goes for the other main characters. But it's all coming together! Once that's done it's back to the real writing! But I really like how my mind keeps working with it! It's awesome!!

Anyway, I don't know what else I'm going to do tonight. I have been trying to watch "Tanked" but I can't seem to concentrate on it. Guess my mind is still working on the story! LOL! That's not a bad thing. But I think I'm going to sleep pretty well tonight too. I just hope that tomorrow I don't wake up so tired. It helps not to stay up for 36 hours straight! In fact, I might take my night meds now and go to sleep. That might be the brightest idea of the evening so far! LOL!

Now, what to do for tomorrow . . . ;-)

5000 Page Views! AWESOME! But No Sleep...

Grant you, I have had this particular blog since 2008, but there was a year or two that I didn't make entries all that often. I just never thought people would read this crazy diary of mine! But, hey, if people get something out of it, then AWESOME! If not, then who knows!

Anyway, I have been awake for just over 33 hours. It's crazy! My mind just wouldn't shut off last night. It was frustrating that I couldn't sleep, but my mind spent a lot of time working on this new story I started.brain storming like crazy! That was nice. I hadn't had a really good brain storming session in awhile. But I wanted to sleep! When it finally hit 5:00am, I gave up. That was it. I was awake and that was it. Eventually I made some coffee as quietly as I could so I wouldn't wake up Cassi. It was funny! Every little sound I made I would look at her to see if I had disturbed her. She slept right through it. 

Jason has been worried about me all day though. He knows that staying up all night isn't usual and it could be the sign of an episode, but I don't think that is the case. But he has continued to check in with me and see if I was doing all right.

When I had taken him to work on the way back I dropped her at a friend's house. I thought that was it. Well, that wasn't it. I went back home and was taking care of a couple more things around here and then my mother called me. At first she was talking about my birthday and how she wanted to give me money for a shirt or something. I said, "Cool!" Then she asked if I would come over. She is still very nervous. She went outside earlier and there was a black sedan stopped in the street near the house, then it was as if they saw her and left. I don't think that's the case, but you never really know. Jordan was sleeping so that wasn't working for her. She asked if I could come over because she would feel better with a car in the driveway. So I said, "No problem!" And went over there. I stayed a couple of hours. I tried to do some writing, but being this tired, my brain didn't want to function. Then, I was freaking out because I wanted to pick up Cassi on my way back so that I wouldn't have to make another trip - I don't need to do that. It just repletes my fuel. I kind of need it to last at least until next Friday. But I couldn't reach her. I called and called and called. I texted several times. I left her a voice mail. Then I had other people calling her. Eventually she called me back and it turned out she was outside with her friend and the phone had been inside the house. Nice! At least I knew what was going on. Her friend also asked his mom if she would bring Cassi home and she agreed to. So I just stayed a few more minutes and then went out the door. What's funny is that she beat me home!!! LOL! I walked in the door and she was there! I was surprised to say the least! :-) So I go back to my room and she comes in a few minutes later that she is going to see her boyfriend/friend and she's going to stay the weekend with the Aunt there. They are enjoying each other's company, which is nice and it hasn't gotten physical either. I mean, nothing past kissing and cuddling. So I laughed, let her pick out some movies to take with her and talked until her boyfriend's Aunt came to get her.

After that, I was trying to write this before dinner, but my concentration was severely lacking at the time. Susan made Thai Curry Chicken Rice Dinner! Delish!! I'm weird. I put sour cream in mine! LOL!

So now it's after dinner. I feel more focused and I'm finishing up this blog. I plan to take my night meds and go to sleep! God knows I need it after all this. I am exhausted, but I finally feel like I can sleep!

Sometimes We Just Ask For It . . .

Well, what can I say about today? LOL! Well, I almost woke up for the day about 6:15am, but I was tired enough to go back to sleep and I slept! I slept until about 10:15am. I got to spend some time with Jason before taking him to the trolley for work. When I got back Cassi's therapist from her new school came to greet us and finish the intake and registration forms. School starts on September 3rd and they still don't have the school ready for students or teachers or therapists! LOL! It's time to get it together people!! But she was very nice and I think Cassi clicked with her, which is a GREAT thing!! I think her last therapist was definitely not her type and she wasn't good with time management. She actually stiffed her on time, which once or twice, I get, but every time?? That was kind of the last straw with me. I don't know. She seemed nice to me, but I think on some level it was kind of fake. Not that I know for sure. Maybe that's how she was. But I also know not every therapist is a good one - from personal experience. Though I have been pretty lucky with most of mine. 

After our meeting with her, I just kind of took care of the litter boxes, washed my Karissa's food bowl and fed her. She was all getting in  my face like "FEED ME, MOM! I'M STARVING!!" Not like she doesn't have a bowl of food to graze on when she's hungry! LOL! Then Susan got home and she was so nice to pick up a prescription for me on the way home so I didn't have to use my fuel too much. That was awesome of her! Then I had a session with my therapist over the phone. That was good and I talked a few things out. That just seems how I work. I talk them out with myself, with others . . . It's a good skill I think. So that's something I get a lot out of.

Susan said she was making dinner tonight, but we all kind of forgot about it until around 8:00pm. After that it was kind of like. "I'll cook tomorrow." "Okay, works for me." I went and grabbed a sandwich! No biggie and I shared it with my Karissa! She enjoyed it a lot! :-) Then I started a letter to one of my prisoners. He's a sweet guy. It helps that I can read his writing. It's unusual and not the easiest to read, but once you get the hang of it, it's not too bad! I'm getting pretty fluent in it, or I am better at deciphering words. I don't know. One of the two. I posted some stuff in my groups on Facebook. There's always something new on there to learn or whatever.

Then for kicks, I looked up a previous friend of mine (from the Junior High Side of Life) who I used to spend some time stocking for here and there. It was just to kind of keep up with what was going on with her and I admit that at once point it was definitely stalking, but it wasn't like I was ever going to hurt her or track her down in person or something. She tells people I'm stalking her like I'm out to get her! Go figure. Anyway, I was just curious tonight. I rarely even care anymore, but she got a book published and I was proud of her for that. So I checked her out a bit. I sent her a note of how I was proud of her for that and like expected I didn't get a response. No big deal. Then I got this wild hair up my butt for some reason and I decided to do a blog search for her. I found it! And you know, it was my own fault for reading it, but I did get a little upset. The stalking thing is just out of control in her mind. Like what am I going to do to her? Then she claims my friend Nicole and I tried to deliberately ruin her marriage because we had been unhappy in ours?? What sense does that make?? Yeah, we're going to ruin your marriage because ours sucked! That is just stupid. No one in their right mind would do that. Then she claims she didn't call her daughter a cunt when she did. She admitted it an said she had apologized to her daughter. Isn't that having done it? What I really feel is that she makes up the way she wants it in her head and she says it so much she finally believes it. It's sad, but if she hadn't been obsessing about writing and trying to get me to do editing - which at the time I had to do A LOT for her. I'm sure she's improved a bit in 5 years. But THAT is what she got pissed at me for. I stopped writing for her - which I didn't get past three chapters anyway because I just couldn't get into her story without using my own character and that's no way to write. I didn't have a feel for it. I couldn't do it. My life got to the point where I was constantly stressed about it because she wanted me to write it. I should have just gone with the original plan and just edited what she wrote instead of having to try to rewrite any of it. But either way, it's under the bridge now for me. But she still harbors all this anger, bitterness and vengeance for me and honestly, I don't get it. Even Nicole's story with her is not what she said. It was bizarre to say the least back then. I won't get into details, but either her husband and son lied to her a lot or something. No one did anything to ruin her marriage or deliberately hurt her. I'm sorry she got hurt and I have always been sorry about that. But let's not make a mistake about what she's REALLY angry about. I left her high and dry with the writing. The day I told her I wasn't going to write her story for her anymore she dropped me as a friend. I will admit one thing I did wrong. I emailed her kids and told them that regardless of everything I would be there for them. Anyway, I should have known better because I have kids and they stick up for me. But it was so emotionally stressful I had a lapse of judgment. That's what I have to say about that. But then she used her kids and her kids friends to hurt me, my daughter and I'm sure if they could have they would have hurt my son. But does that warrant hatred and bitterness for the rest of your life? Come on! Five years should be enough time to get over yourself! Am I wrong, people? But she really believes the spiel she gives now. That's sad. And you know what? She stalks me too. I wouldn't be surprised if she's reading this. 

Okay, that was my rant. I feel better now and I am done with her. God closed that door for a reason. It's just sad because I would have supported her on her journey. Well, so be it. It is what it is, right?

Okay, other than that, there's nothing else I can say except I am done for the day. I am going to take a bath, do some reading, take my meds and go to sleep! :-)

Driving Through the Day!

Well, I woke up pretty good today and in a good mood for the most part! Kinda back to my old self. The bleeding stopped for awhile. Unfortunately, it started up again and "surprise, surprise" I got tired again! Of course, not like driving around in the heat helped at all. I mean, the heat could get worse, but this is when the humidity comes. It sucks! I don't do really well in the heat anyway, though I tolerate it much better than I used to when I was 160 lbs. heavier. That was horrendous!

Anyway, I woke up, spent some time with Jason. Then I had to pick up Jordan and his friend George to take them to GameStop over by my Mom's. Taylor and Cassi came along just to go. When we got there, the boys went in and got their game. Apparently they were handed the special edition! Needless they didn't take it back in. The woman obviously didn't check. I can't blame them. I mean, she did give that one to them. Not like you can take it back now. 

After that, we swung by McDonald's. I got two large ice waters. One for Cassi and one for me. George got a McFlurry and a Quarter Pounder, I think. He had coupons. Then I took them home. Then I went home. Hung out with Cassi and Jason a bit, but decided I was going to put my new sheets on the bed. I have been waiting to use them. They are light purple and I love this color! Anyway, I open up the sheet and come to find it's a flat sheet!! What?? I thought I had grabbed a fitted sheet. So I had to call Jordan to have him go with me to Walmart so he could do the exchange. I already returned too many things without a receipt, I guess. :-( I only do it when I need to do it, but I guess people were abusing the system or something. So I brought Jordan with me. Cassi came with again. So that was my second trip. But inside Walmart we had to go get sheets twice because I had taken off the stickers on the sheet I had because I thought it was what I needed. She needed another one to scan. What's kind of nice is the fact that I got my money back anyway!! And I wasn't expecting it back! I think it has something to do with things being put in the wrong place and if it's under $5. . . maybe? But that worked because Cassi was thristy, I was thirsty and Jordan was starving. He'd also taken 2 Tylenol PMs for a headache and was so tired! But we went to the McDonald's inside Walmart. Jordan got two McChickens, Cassi got a $1 drink and I had my cup from earlier so I just got more ice water! Then as we were eating my mom called me. I had called her earlier to just see how she was. She's still really upset about the break-in. I can't blame her and she asked if Jordan would be willing to stay the night again. Of course, it's another trip to the mobile home (my brother Tim's place) so Jordan could get his stuff. I dropped off Cassi on the way so that she could go see her boyfriend. Jason and Susan were taking her there. Anyway, I took Jordan over to my mom's and he's going to ask her if she wants him to stay for awhile until she feels better. It would be a good solution to her worrying. Jordan will kick anyone's ass if they try breaking in again! So all in all, I drove 70 miles in one day or more miles than that. Not sure. But at least 70. I am glad I don't have to do anymore driving! Yay!

That was sure more than I had planned to do today. I managed to get a lot of my daily list done today even despite all the running around. I do think I'm going to sleep we tonight! LOL! 

I did want to work a bit on my newer story, but I know I am way too tired to think straight so that will have to be something for tomorrow. I also have letters to work on. I need to write my new soldier. I'm behind a few letters and goodness knows I'm behind on sending packages. Maybe if I can afford it I'll send a couple of packages to him next month. I really need to make up for it. I also have another couple prisoners to write. Both of them sweet guys. One in particular. It seems I can read his writing pretty well. I am pretty good at deciphering hand writing. My dad was always amazed that I could read his "chicken scratches." LOL! That ability is serving me well.

Well, tomorrow Cassi and I finish her intake for school. I can't believe the summer is almost over! Wow! I can't believe my birthday is this coming Monday! I think I'l be 44 years old.  I never seem to keep track anymore! LOL! I honor the day with fun! But you know, I don't need to think how old I really am. I feel kinda timeless! I know it sounds funny, but it's true! I don't feel old. I don't feel young. I just feel good!! :-)

I need to get a little reading in tonight. I'm reading "Roses are Red" by James Patterson and it is great so far! Since I've been reading the Alex Cross books out of order, I know who the bad guy is. But I don't know the story. So far I am liking it. But I haven't found a James Patterson book I haven't liked yet! Wish I could be as prolific and awesome as him! 

Anyway, that's it for today's adventures! On to tomorrow's!!

Friendships, Relationships and Shopping Oh My!!

Well, I am STILL exhausted! I did get a shower in today. I was also able to put fuel in the car and pick up a few things from the store - from a portion of the child support I get for Cassi. The poor thing was so tired this afternoon she just crashed and is just out for the count! But she hadn't slept well this weekend even though she spent it with her boyfriend. But she's had a lot on her mind. She would almost be in her 9th month of pregnancy if she hadn't lost the baby. The thing is, we all know that it was probably a good thing for her, but, you know, it was still a little life she carried inside her for almost three months. It's not like she was going to just forget. And so she's been thinking about the baby. That was one big reason that I let her stay with her boyfriend so they could talk and she could cuddle him while gong through some of the emotions. It would have been worse if she'd been here. Not that anyone would bother her, but that she wouldn't have anything to distract her and then she's ruminate on it. Not good. Then this morning she wanted to go talk to Robbie. I think she was the father of the baby, the way the math worked out, so I was worried what might happen. The last thing I wanted to see was her getting back together with him. He was not a god influence either. I mean, Cassi can find her own trouble. She doesn't need help! And he was nothing but trouble. But after him she had a tendency to go through boyfriends like toilet paper until now! She has a very nice boyfriend now and he is a good kid. He wants to be a police officer and maybe go into the FBI. Means no drugs or alcohol and they get along so well that she really likes him a lot. She might even love him! And he feels the same for her. He is supportive and loving toward her. He's respectful and he is a good influence. He also loves animals too! And they have already been talking about the future and they both can see one together! So here are my fingers crossed! You might think she's a little young to think about the future, but she could use a real relationship and who knows! Maybe they were meant to be! :-)

Anyway, today I managed to find a few great recipes that I want to try - maybe next month. I got a letter the other day from my sister, Diana. She was nice enough to pay my storage for four months. But I get to take over in October which is also the month my rent goes up. :-( It's not going to bode well for the end of the year, but I will somehow make it work.

I also made fat free honey corn bread and it tastes funny. I think we need to go back to the regular. That's the kind Cassi and I prefer and Susan might too after she tries this. I mean, not that it's horrible, it just doesn't taste right. I also bought honey to put on it. Susan hates honey though, so it's more for Cassi and I. Not sure Jason likes honey or not. Of course, I also like honey on fried chicken. I know, I'm weird! LOL! I also picked up more decaf coffee, though I might make regular coffee tomorrow if I'm this tired again! I'll need something to perk me up! I also got more Almond Joy creamer. That stuff is delicious! I also got some nutty bars. I had one, but gave Cassi one also. Needless to say, I share! :-) 

Well, I am still exhausted and I want to finish a letter to a prisoner I write to. I don't know if I will because I am really exhausted, but I'm going to try! So ciao for now! 

Feeling Like I am in a Field of Poppies!

For the last day and a half I have been so foggy and tired. I realize that I have started my monthly. PMS wasn't too bad this time, which is ALWAYS a GOOD thing! LOL! I know guys prefer girls not to wig out at that time of the month. LOL! 

Anyway, I'm still having cramps, but I have been so sleepy! Literally, it feels like I wandered into Dorthy's field of poppies on her way to the Emerald City. I just laid down and slept a lot. I mean through yesterday morning, the afternoon, last night, this morning - when I FINALLY got up around 10:30am - then I took a nap about an hour or so after that. Since then, I have tried to stay away and have, but I have to say I am still feeling groggy. I guess that means I'll sleep deep again tonight . . . maybe. The cramps SUCK!!! However, the foggy and tired feeling is probably worse!

Outside of that, things have been going pretty good! I have another blog that I started called - Krystina Grant's Writings. I'm trying to get it active. I have posted a few things, but there hasn't exactly been a lot of traffic and no followers, which is a bit sad. I also have a page on Facebook of the same name and there are at least 11 people that like that page. I still want more people to come visit and enjoy. I really want more people to get to know me and my writing. I think it will happen, but it will take time, like most good things. Nothing happens over night - except on rare occasions! Which has happened before.

What else can I say? Not much has really been going on except the sleeping and I had crazy dreams! I read this book I was given within a day and everyone was surprised I was able to, as if it were something difficult to comprehend, but in the dream I got it, no problem! That was a good dream to me. I had a few other strange ones, but that was the one that stood out the most.  I also did finish reading "Alex Cross," "Alex Cross, Run," "The Big Bad Wolf" and then I start on the next Alex Cross book tonight. At least I think I'll start reading it tonight - "Roses are Red." James Patterson is an awesome writer. There are several more of his books that I want - I want to read all the Alex Cross books before I read others by him. What can I say? I really like his character, Alex Cross.

Well, Jason made dinner tonight which was sweet of him. He and Susan crashed hard when they got home. I wanted to make dinner for them, but I was told Susan was going to cook or that Jason was and to be honest, feeling foggy and tired as I have been, I really didn't feel like making anything. However, just as I went out there to just make myself a hot dog or something, Jason told me to go back to my room. LOL! Basically he was cooking, so I didn't mind being told to go to my room! I also got served in my room, in bed! Can't beat that! :-) And it was something simple which is pretty much what I cook too - Mac 'n cheese with hot dog pieces. I think, if I feel up to it, I might cook tomorrow. There are several things I can cook. Unless Jason wants to cook. I love his BBQ chicken! Yum! It's definitely one of  my favorites! Or he might make chili mac which is something else I like.

Anyway, I think I'm going to call this a night here shortly and let this foggy, tired feeling take me back to the land of dreams. I need to get water first! :-P

                 

Happy to Be Me!

What can I say about today? Busy? Productive? Happy for the most part? How about it all? I went to bed last night pretty late. I ended up sleeping in until 10:00am when Jason finally woke me up. It was good I slept, but I needed to get him to work. When I came home Cassi was awake. Apparently we had woken her up when we were leaving. :-( I didn't even get dressed at that point because I was a bit rushed. LOL! I just stayed in my Pajamas. :-) Even into the noon hour. Cassi wanted her boyfriend to come over and I really like him so far and I believe this will be her first REAL relationship. They both want to take it relatively slow and really just let things flow, like being friends. What I really like is that he's a good influence on her. He wants to become a cop. Maybe even go into the FBI! He also handles time very well! I just like him a lot! Even Jason wasn't upset over this boy. Usually he has a cow when she has a boyfriend or even a boy friend over. But this one might be the real deal. I hope so. I want to see them happy together!

Anyway, I got dressed and started cleaning up the kitchen counters and reorganizing things that were on them. I picked him up from the trolley, we came back and I finished the kitchen counters (Except a little one near the microwave). I put stuff on it that I wasn't entirely sure where else to put. LOL! After that, I went back into my bedroom and let them hang out and watch a movie together. While they were watching the movie, I worked on a letter to a prisoner I've befriended. Unfortunately I haven't finished it yet. Maybe tomorrow morning! :-) I was also on Facebook working on a couple of my groups and then added something to my Page called "Krystina Grant's Writings." I also added something to my Blog of the same name. I also wrote  down some recipes that I want to make. I have been so into cooking lately! Just simple stuff and different variations. So far haven't had a miss yet and that makes me feel so good! It gives me more and more confidence to keep on cooking. I haven't enjoyed cooking like this for YEARS! 

I also cleaned out the litter boxes, Karissa's food bowl and eventually feed her. Then I made dinner - Steak Fajita Rice Dinner. Really simple and turned out yummy. It was also super delicious! Everyone liked it!  Yay! After serving and eating myself, I went back to my room and put the sheet back on my bed. I toss and turn at night and it pulls the corner up. That drives me crazy! LOL! I also swept the bathroom floor a little. Someone else needs to get it up and out. My back started aching tonight, but I am not unhappy with the day. 

I just wish that I could get a little more likes on my FB page and more hits on my other blog. But we'll see what happens! Maybe tomorrow I might work a new story or keep going on an older one. I have two I have started and haven't finished not to mention tons of ideas! 

I have just been feeling good lately!! I don't know if it's a mild hypomania, but I haven't crashed yet and my monthly is due any day now. Usually I wouldn't be this happy, calm or productive! I have really been so happy for the last few weeks. I feel so productive and hopeful about the future! Plus being in an environment where I am loved and appreciated for what I do and not bitched and moaned at for not having done something, or not doing it right or just constant negative attitude. Then being accused of having a bad attitude!! LOL! Go figure! I like who I am right now and that's worth my weight in gold! Seriously - I'm not exactly thin yet! :-D

Well, I am ready to get back into my pajamas, take my night meds and crash! We'll see how things go tomorrow! ;-D

Such a Bright Future!!

What can I say! I know it's been awhile and I've gone through a lot of stuff. I moved from my mother's. Cassi came with me. Jordan went to my brother Tim's. Though I have found out I am physically addicted to ativan. I guess it's not such a surprise when you think about the fact I've been on it for years. But I talked to my Pdoc and told her I wanted off. The withdrawal symptoms sucked and it triggered a hypomanic episode. Not fun, but livable. The Pdoc came up with a plan to ween me off and now I'm doing much better. I went from 2mgs a day - usually at night to help me sleep, down to 1 mg. Tomorrow I go down to .5 mgs a day for a week and then I am done and over with this insidious drug. In fact, since I've been easing off it, I have had a clearer mind, I have been happier. Life is good!

Also a previous friend got her book published. It's called "The Adventures of Four Paws and a Tail: Butch Finds a New Home." It's a children's book. I haven't read it myself, but I am so happy for her! And it has also inspired me to go back and really pursue my dream of getting published!

I have also started pages for my writing because I have more than one book in the running. I want people interested in me as a writer too; not just my book "Assassin's Seduction." If you're into suspense romance or more romance I guess, this might be something you could be interesting! My books are all about that kind of feel with different twists. They are not typical story lines. If you want to find my blog here: http://krystinagrantwritings.blogspot.com/ and you can look my page up on Facebook. It's under Krystina Grant's Writings.

But regardless what happens I won't give up. The last few years have been filled with a fair amount to stress and strife, but I've come through it. I have great friends that are my family. They love me and I love them. They provide me shelter (I do pay them rent), they help encourage me, they are there when things don't go so well, but I can say that in general my life has been good and just recently it has been great! I really feel like I have a bright future. That my dreams will be fulfilled and that I continue to have more good days than bad! 

I am just so happy with my life right now. :-) I feel positive! And that's the best thing of all!