Still With the Pain :-(

I thought I'd be asleep by now, but NOOOOO! I have to have restless legs! Outside of being tired I've still been having that pain all day when I get up and down and when I twist a certain way. It's like I'm getting stretched apart and when it happens it HURTS! On the upside I'm seeing Dr. Tanaka tomorrow. But I'm nervous about what he'll say and I'm nervous about getting there on my own. I have directions, but I think there might be something wrong about it. But I don't know. Guess I'll find out when I get there.

I managed to take my mom to Vine Ripe today. Cassie came with which was nice. She went in with Grandma while I waited in the car. I didn't want to get up if I didn't have to. It sucks. I also helped Cassie with a speech and then a science project. I also watched Deadlist Catch tonight which was an emotional episode. But I'm yawning and want to sleep so hopefully I can now.

Pain in the Abdomen . . .

Well, I haven't had a whole lot to say lately and writing on my blog has really just been the last thing on my mind. Usually I am so tired at night that I just haven't written. But I figured it was time to just jump back in and start back on my trail.

I was supposed to go back to Water Aerobics tonight and I had the intension to do just that. But everyone around doesn't want me to carry my gym back and now I am having some kind of pain in my upper right abdomen. It hurts when I stand up or sit down and sometimes when I lean a certain way. I called my surgeon and talked to the nurse. She said that he thinks it might be a pulled muscle - not sure how that would have happened . . . But to apply hear to it and come see him on Wednesday morning. This will be interesting because I have never gone there by myself. On the plus side I'll get weighed and I'll get to see what I've lost. But I'm nervous going there.

And as far as applying heat, we had no heating pad and no water bottle so my mom gave me her credit card to get a heating pad and buy Taco Bell for dinner. What's awesome was that I can each the refried beans!! I have had them 2 days in a row and no ill effects. It's nice to be able to have something to eat there.

The sad things is that I have been using the heating pad and well . . . it hasn't helped with the pain. That SUCKS! Anyway, tomorrow Susan will give me directions to the office tomorrow so I hopefully won't get lost. And I HAVE to get my car insurance out tomorrow too! I don't want it to be late, but I was just too sore to do more. Plus I have to pull out more money which sucks!

Anyway, I guess that's it. Trying to keep a positive attitude. After all, I think I am still losing weight. That will be nice to see a result. That will keep me motivated. Speaking of, I've only had one real meal today. Think I better have someone get me something. I'm sure that adds to my fatigue.

Guess that's it for today. 

Fatigue, Light Headedness . . . Dehydration?

It seems like it's been a long day. I had my pdoc appointment this morning and I was surprised I was taken right in. Usually there's a good waiting period. But I am guessing the person before me didn't show up. My Pdoc actually spent a lot of time with me. What was kind of neat was running into the RID leader. She could see I've lost weight and that made me smile. It's nice to know it's that noticeable! And I talked to Jodi and my Pdoc about my surgery and they both agree that we're going to have to see how things work out with my meds. We may need to adjust them as I lose weight. I'm not looking forward to that if that's the case.

Anyway, as I was leaving I got a text from Daniel. I knew he needed a place to stay so I told him to come over. I got the rest of the story from Daniel, but I didn't tell Jason what I know. It's not worth the drama that comes with it, you know? Daniel asked my mom if he could live here for a week and she said sure. I wish it was for a longer period of time. I don't want to see Daniel go back to Oregon. We'd never see him again! And he has a job here! Then Jason wanted me to pick him up and take him home, so I did. Cassie spilled the beans about Daniel, but that was no big deal. I played down anything Daniel told me and I also told him I didn't want the drama. Think I ticked him off a bit, but it's true! Who needs drama, right?

Well, I'm tired and have been all day. I've also been light-headed and really fatigued. I finally called the Surgeon's office and talked to a nurse. She said it sounded like I wasn't drinking enough water and getting dehydrated. I hope that's been fixed now that I've had a lot of water. But I still feel fatigued. Guess I'll see what happens in the next couple of days. But for now, I'm going to maybe get a string cheese and then zone out for the rest of the night.

Tension Rising

 

Well, the day for the most part was okay. I stayed home from going to the gym again. I thought I was going to take my mom around places. But I slept until it was time to pick up Cassie from her half day of school. After that, I took my mom to the bank and then we went to Vine Ripe for veggie and lamb chop stuffs. I got some Halva even though I didn't know if I could eat it or not.

My stomach has felt a bit full today. But nothing serious. No nausea and no vomiting or diarrhea. Breakfast was some 2% cottage cheese. I couldn't eat a lot of it though. Then lunch was a scrambled egg which I kept down easy enough. The smell of the onions and peppers that my mom had cooked was so hard to resist. I so wanted to take a piece or two. But as it was, I had Cassie get me a piece of Halva. It was a bigger piece than I would have taken and I was worried about the "Dumping" syndrome. But nope. It was good and I was okay.

I have been a little emotional today and I am not in the mood to deal with Jason's crap. The tension between Cassie in regards to him is emmence! SHe really doesn't want anything to do with him anymore. Not even Susan. I am hoping this eventually changes. Personally, he wants me to come pick him up from Amaya and take him home for the next three days and personally I think he wants to get together and I am just not in the mood. That's just more stress than I need. And now he's kicked out Daniel. Grant you, Daniel had a big mouth, but I wouldn't have wanted him to go. And personally, Jason can say he hasn't been looking for a way to get Daniel out of the house since he got there, but he has! Maybe things just got out of hand today. I hope so. But I just wan't want the drama! I don't NEED the drama. What I need is calm so that I can continue to heal and move forward. I can't wait for time to pass and I can start eating more variety of food!

Anyway, I just hope there is no more stress around Jason. I don't need it.

I Could Be Feeling Better

Well, I'm not feeling so great today. After worrying about Jordan last night I took something to help me sleep this morning for  awhile, but I ended up sleeping all morning and into the afternoon. Something great happened today though! My new California benefits card came today FINALLY!!! So after I ate some yogurt and Cassie had dinner we went to Walmart. I was feeling pretty crappy though. Probably a combo of the sleeping I did and a tea I drank with sugar in it. But I'm not dumping. I just feel really rundown. I suppose that's really my sleeping late and still recovering. Because no nausea or throwing up or anything else. I just don't feel so well. Guess we'll see how I feel in the morning.

I am glad I went to Walmart tonight,  though I really didn't have the energy. Got a mother's day card for my mom and a card for Susan. :-) I also got a plant for my mom as a present. Now I just have to keep it alive until Sunday. LOL! I do not have a green thumb. I thnk it'll be fine though.

Anyway, not much else to tell except that I did eat a scrambled egg tonight and it tasted pretty good. I think I might have eaten too much, but it seems to have worked out. I need to make sure that I stick to eating three meals a day. Maybe a snack, but that's it. I wonder if I've lost anymore weight. Guess I'll find out at the gym if I try the scale there. If I'm below 400 lbs it will weigh me!! :-D

Guess that's it. I'm doing okay. Just wish I felt a little better today. But I wouldn't change getting that surgery for anything.

Man I Miss Food! LOL!

Wow! I never thought I would miss food quite as much as I do. As you can guess, the surgery went very well. The day of surgery, I weighed in at 416 lbs. A week after surgery I'm down to 403 lbs. The thing is, the more I'm stuck with the bland food, the more I want things like chili relleno burritos! LOL! It's HORRIBLE! I got my daughter a Carne Asada burrito and I just about died from the smell. It smelled so good!! Before sugery I could still eat what I wanted up to a point. Now, it's going to be months before I can eat chicken! Though I'll tell you, I am thrilled that I will be able to eat white fish in a week or so! I might even get the little bay shrimp. I might be able to eat them too. Like now! :-D It just sucks, except for the weight loss. I'm almost under 400 lbs! Just that is AMAZING!! So as much as I hate not being able to really eat, I'm happy to be losing weight.

I just hope I don't have to deal with more delicious smells. LOL! I won't be that lucky with my mom cooking for the kids though!

Anyway, that's about all I have to comment on for now. Tomorrow I'm going to go to the gym. Hope I have enough energy to go and work out.