I mood has only dipped once since it elevated last month. It was a residule to a couple years ago and my big breakdown then. However, after three days it left me and I am back to my happy self again! It makes things all the better because my Aussie has stayed at my side. Though I didn't talk too much to him during the darkness of my depression he was worried about me. That says so much to me. To have someone you care about care about you in return is HUGE!
The fact that my Aussie is still here beside me has helped my mood stay high. For Valentine's Day (his time. LOL!) I decided to write out how I felt. I started with my first impression of him and how things had progressed from there. I mean, it all started by me seeing his picture and liking his smile. A smile can say a thousand words sometimes. At first, I thought how he'd make a good friend and contacted him. He excepted my friendship and from there our relationship just bloomed. I truly love him. He brought parts of me back to life I thought were dead. He awakened my heart. I may never see him in my whole life, but I hope for a day I can. He has inspired me to do better for myself. I am trying to eat better and get sun at the park so I'm not so pale. I just think about photos being taken that I can send to him.
The great thing too is that he doesn't care if I'm fat or thin. He loves me for me. I have a part of his heart that no one else has. He told me so for Valentine's. And he has my heart. Even though he lives half a world away, he's never far from my thoughts or heart. He inspires me. he comforts me . . . he has been there for me . . .
Love is the best thing one can have in the world. Love from your children, love from your friends and love for a certain person that owns your heart . . .
